RockAmanda wrote:
I refused to take anything before when people said maybe it would help me, because I thought it would impair my ability to figure out my problems that were making me depressed in the first place, and I also thought it would compromise my survival instinct. Also, since I wasn't doing much, I thought it was insulting for people to say I may need something to function instead of just being able to do it myself without being told what to do, or being medicated into just being normal.
(Now I need an antidepressant and I take it. I knew I needed something, I was understimmed, and by then I understood that it would help my understimulation by stimulating me.)
I refused to take medications as well. My point of view was that medications only treat part of the problem. I knew as someone who is very interested in biology and psychology, that changing behaviors is important to create lasting chemical changes in the brain. It was my point of view that medications alone would not be sufficient to maintain long term emotional health. I worried that if I started taking medications before I was truly engaged in the work of changing my perspectives, that I would decide to let the meds do the work and not continue to strive for true emotional well-being.
Both my counselor and best friend at the time told me I needed to go to the doctor and get medications. I refused and instead spent time researching alternate treatments. In the end I found one and made a compromise with my counselor. I would try St. John's Wort for 30 days, and if there was no improvement, then I would agree to go to the doctor and try something else. All went well, and I never had to take prescription medications. In fact, I only took St. John's Wort for a few months before my moods were leveled out. I later learned that a German study found St. John's Wort to be as effective in treating mild depression as Paxil.
Depending on the cause of the chemical imbalances, some people may need only short-term interventions, while others may need long-term medications. Either way, I believe that medications alone are not the answer to any problem.
* Edited to note: When I was seeking treatment, it was for help in dealing with events in my personal history as well as depression that resulted from these events and the isolation I felt when I was younger.
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Last edited by quesonrias on 07 Jan 2011, 11:45 pm, edited 1 time in total.