Wasting away into oblivion online for years now

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I have no life, all i do is go online, i hate it. I used to try very hard to go out make friends and socialize, then one day i typed how to be more social on google, lead to a you tube clip about aspergers, felt that was the darkest omen and darkest news of my life, 2 years later, i still sit in a room of darkness. I do work in Fast food, everyone hates me there tho. MAKES ME HATE ASPERGERS AND MYSELF MORE.

Have you considered therapy?

Dosent work, did talking about it help you?

Oh god yes. Not as much as I want, but more than not talking.

One thing that helps is finding someone who knows ASDs. Otherwise therapy can be pretty useless.

get an education and a real life if you can. being useful is the best therapy.

I know times are tough and maybe it's not easy to afford higher education. Do you have any creative outlets? Just anything you have to look forward to after work like drawing or writing?

Also if you have your own place do you have a pet? I would just think having a cat or something can be nice have a companion to take care of and be responsible for.

Are there public universities in your country?

Lol, t'was the story of my life -- I quit fastfood, started my own lawn care business, and I'm f*****g glad I'm not working in fast food anymore where I had to interact with people who disliked me or thought I had "mental problems". God, they're a bunch of judgmental gossips. (Btw, I tried applying for a fast food position recently, but found that none were available so I started the business.)

I don't really know if I have aspergers, but I definitely feel like I have "something" that puts in the top 5th percentile of whatever that "something" is.

This! Doing something that helps a little is better than doing nothing at all. Sit still and the world passes you by. You have to keep moving forward, even if only a little bit at a time.



This too. Therapy aimed at an NT assumes certain thinking patterns and typical ways of interacting. These very often don't apply to autism. The therapist MUST understand this.

It's the something that lands people on the Wrong Planet.

Don't hate yourself, hate them (I don't mean cause trouble for them or anything, I mean stop caring), and don't let them bring you down.
I have no life either. All I do is go online as well. I used to try hard to make friends and socialize too, it was too hard, and it's not worth it anyway, people suck.
I found out about Asperger's when I was 18, but I found myself feeling enlightened, glad that I was not alone. (And, yet, I am still alone)

But, to be honest, many times, and most of the time, I've hated being an Aspie, and being a reclusive Aspie at that.
I'm almost 23 now, and I have been locked up in my room for about 6 years now.

You'll either change someday and socialize well and feel better, or get used to being a reclusive Aspie and feel better, either way is good enough, I am the latter.
Whatever happens, is what is fated. All power and control is an illusion, at least, this is what I perceive to be true.

Maybe this is irrelevant but I had an epiphany yesterday...I actually have an intense sense of loneliness but I have very little desire to be around people.

+1
Yep, although I think the thing is I'm never away from people long enough to want to be around them. And technically I'm around people all the time living in an apartment, listening to them scream at their children, stomp around upstairs, get home at 3 am blasting their stereo and shining their headlights in my bedroom window. So I always feel like I need to get away from people because I get all of the bad and none of the good. I went to the movies with a friend on thursday and those 4 hours of human interaction made me feel happy. So I think my ideal situation would be 15 hours of interaction per week and the rest of the time I'm in a cabin in the middle of nowhere with my animals.

The internet can become a debilitating crutch, but you will find that as you get older, things do tend to get better.