I use to see "traditional therapist" and they would tell me that I was "out of touch with my feelings" because a lot of time when I would be recounting things that had happened(many bad events)I would laugh or be smiling.It was like I was recounting something I had read because I had no emotional attachment to the event.I know I was hurt ,angry,sad,at the times they happened,but didnt feel that way anymore.They were just "stories".Just the thought that I use to be three feet tall,saving insects from the swimming pool....I think....who was that kid.I just cant believe that is the same ....ME.I have a few,very vivid,snapshot memories of growing up but dont remember any of the day to day stuff.What kind of food did I eat,how did I get it,etc.
My biggest problem has been memory, long term of short.Since I was young,I could never remember where my comb,shoes,homework was,when it was due.(now it's car keys,mailing bills on time,staff meeting)But I can remember floor plans for all the houses(many)I have lived in and studying the Greek alphabet when I was in second grade.
Memory,like sleep,dreams,death....fascinates and confuses me....what is real and what makes it so?
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