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Right now I am sitting here at Denny's. I ordered
a Grand Slam and Soda. The cost was $6.50. Heck of
a lot cheaper than in California.

The waiters here doddle and sit around like the ones
in San Francisco. The one on 4th and Mission, or
near the Meteron Movie Theatre kicked me out
when the gay waiter goes on shift. I sit for 2 hours
and do computer stuff. At Midnight the gay waiter
goes on shift and asks me to leave. There are others
who hung well before and after, so it was targeted
at me.

I once tried ordering food and drink on a regular
basis, but to no avail. This Apple Valley Denny's
doesn't seem pretensius and the one gay
waiter here feels no different than the one in
San Francisco except my booth is not in his area.
The other staff are attentive to a certain degree on
drink refills and taking orders when it gets busy,
and that is nice improvement from the Denny's in
San Francisco, Sunnyvale, Palo Alto.

I am not a gay basher, nor homophobic. I have had
my share of gay sex for the physical contact issue
females didn't provide between the ages 20-24.

When I left that scene at 24 I grew a distaste
for the pretentious attitude that they emit. You
can spot one a mile away. This is probly what
they feel from my space when they are around me.

I am not trying to offend the posters on Wrong
Planet that are gay with this comment, it is a life
experience and result that needed airing, especially
since gay waiters are one of my pet peeves(annoyances)
next to repeating myself, and begging.

Soon events will occur that will dictate the next
direction I shall go. I have purged myself of the stressing
being in Apple Valley feeling, and fessed up to the fact
that the V.A.P results have confused me.

I once said earlier to Pyraxis that I will be setting
plans on what to do next after the Harry Potter move #4
release. This is to compliment the beginning of the Apple
Valley adventure with the #6 book release. Then concludes
a little after the #4 movie release, or that is the theory.

I have done the pre-leaving setup already. I liquidated
the non-sellable Dells(10¢ covers) that may command a
surprising value here, but zilch(dimes on the dollar in S.F)
in San Francisco and elsewhere I have been.

I find this ironic. I once embarked on a similar adventure
of how many 10¢ Dells I could find in the S.F-antique flea.
I managed to get a nice set of 30. They ranged in titles
like I found here, and guided $5-$14 in good(2.0) overstreet
each, just like here. I sold the whole lot at $15 due to no
takers throughout the S.F area stores listed as existent.

I did not want to repeat this. 10¢ Dell's are
starter issues as a rule of thumb and I let the rest of
my collection take a life of it's own.

In Apple Valley it was 12¢-35¢ Gold Keys, then
10¢ Dells, until I reached a comfortable, and transportable
point of 12(pending a 13th) pre-hero Atlas/Marvel run.

The other point is they emmased 48 issues from $1-$10,
but mostly $1-$3, and some $5, also a few $10. The price
I got in parts allowed the Marvel/Atlas's to take on a rapidly
conclusive rate. They were expensive $15-$30 each.
The point is less to carry of greater value than $1-$10 a
piece. I never liked bulk space wasted anyways, and I
can replace the 10¢ Dells most anywhere in my next
adventure that is soon to come.

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Here is the breakdown:

AS-IS upon leaving Apple Valley
#9 Kid Colt $29 ©50' from....Metropolis Comics, NY
#13 Kid Colt $25 ©51' from....Metropolis Comics, NY
#22 Kid Colt $25 ©52' from....Fort Wayne Comics Store, Indiana
#26 Kid Colt $34 estimated value ©53' from....Birthday gift from Pyraxis
#46 Kid Colt $7 ©55' from....Fort Wayne Comics Store, Indiana
#65 Kid Colt $18 ©56' from....Fort Wayne Comics Store, Indiana
#94 Kid Colt $7 ©60' from....Fort Wayne Comics Store, Indiana

*pending decision!-Upon income source found and budget considered!! !! !! !
• #2 Kid Colt $110 ©48' -Metropolis Comics, NY Online, unseen!
• #3 Kid Colt $80 ©48' -Metropolis Comics, NY Online, unseen!
• #4 Kid Colt $80 -Metropolis Comics, NY Online, unseen!
• #7 Kid Colt $45 ©49' -Metropolis Comics, NY Online, unseen!
• #11 Kid Colt $80 ©51'-Origin Issue! in Fort Wayne store, Indiana
• #29 Kid Colt $33 ©53' -Metropolis Comics, NY Online, unseen!
• #36 Kid Colt $25 ©54' -Metropolis Comics, NY Online, unseen!
• #54 Kid Colt $15 ©54' -Metropolis Comics, NY Online, unseen!
• #72 Kid Colt $7 ©57' -Metropolis Comics, NY Online, unseen!
• #80 Kid Colt $10 ©58' -Metropolis Comics, NY Online, unseen!

or #2, 3, 4, 7, 9, 11, 13, 22, 26, 29, 36, 46, 54, 65, 72, 80, 94(17 ISSUES)


AS-IS upon leaving Apple Valley
#41 All-True Crime $10 ©50' from.....Burnsville, Shinders, Minnesota
#27 Wild Western w/Kid Colt $30 ©52' from.....Fort Wayne Comics Store, Indiana
#23 Black Rider $15 ©54' from.....Burnsville, Shinders, Minnesota
#72 Strange Tales $30 ©59' from.....Burnsville, Shinders, Minnesota
#30 Tales to Astonish $10 ©62' from.....Burnsville, Shinders, Minnesota
#81 Journey into Mystery $20 ©62' from.....Burnsville, Shinders, Minnesota
#82 Journey into Mystery $15 ©62' from.....Burnsville, Shinders, Minnesota

*pending decision!-Upon income source found and budget considered!! !! !!
• #14 Amazing Adult Fantasy $75 ©62' .....Burnsville, Shinders, Minnesota

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To further this train of thought about forbodding feelings
and the damned soul I am, my feelings on Apple Valley
are very settled. I see no hope or interest being here. It is
being treated like Fremont, California. I don't belong there,
just like here. This is why I stopped making emotional investments
here and let Susan create the conclusionary thoughts and time-line.

It is in my opinion that BeeBee and I both see this, since
we both know how limiting this area is for a spontaneous
and get-up-and-go person like me.

The facts are I am ambitious, and also spontaneous but when
stranded grow stagnant. I have no way to go to and fro on weekends
since BeeBee sleeps in and I am just here. I was just "there" in Sunnyvale,
and Fremont as well. Weekdays I am just as stranded and usually
a bit more stressed.

BeeBee has done a great deal for me, and I owe her alot in
much emotional support(as much as she can spare between
her 2 boys). This weekend thing is for her recharging, and
that is a good thing for her. It just doesn't change the fact
that I am stranded here and must thus take account for my
actions based on what Susan can provide me in opportunities,
and that should be the deciding factor, GOD BLESS BEEBEE for being
here and letting me stay here regardless of what I must
do next. Hopefully Susan can produce miracles?

BeeBee is a giving sort that buys for charities, and holidays
when the seasons pass and the merchandise is dimes on
the dollar. Later she will emass a large quantity and
wrap them(christmas) or display them(halloween, her
favorite holiday), or charity write-off them as donations.

She does more than the average mom I have met. Her
2 sons are polar-opposites and take alot of referee'ing
on her part, and her love for them as here fellow creature
and person rarely wanes. Bless her heart. When I arrived
here I was a ragged soul, and still am. But she has allowed
me to see a real family I never had. The family evirement
she creates here is beyond compare to my own family(distant to me)
and others I have seen.

Sunnyvale does have a bus system. Fremont does not have a bus
service worth mentioning. Fremont's buses are hourly on week days
and don't serve suburban areas most of the day and weekends.
And you still walk the same hours distance as you do here in
Apple Valley.

This and other facts dictate that I must leave Apple Valley,
For me to go to school and such, a good transportation system
is a must. Both BeeBee and I agree on that.

The proper phrasing here is I am making no emotional investments
here and content myself in improving my X.2.4 video making skills.
That is because I don't want to be reliant on just a internet occupation.
I have done well here in this video making department since the
Pismo and Vidster.

Earlier this year I found the hidden emotional treasures in
fanmade videos for Harry Potter on

www.veritaserum.com/vtmmedia/fanmade/

And captured fan made items made by fans. I enveyed them
and wanted to partake in this. Then I discover up to 240
videos made by Harry Potter fans and now can make my own
thanks to the Pismo, Vidster, and OS X.2.4.

I use these video to subconsciously write(or as writing tools).
That is their value to me.

1)....Harry and his friends(Lupin, Sirius, ect...) are damned souls
learning to live even in a darker world.

2)....Loveless and emotionally homeless(lost parenting, and
affection)

3)....and tormented(his friends included-Lupin, Sirius)

That is why I often include this unlikely trio(Harry, sirius, lupin)
in my themes for the damned in a dark world(autistic in
a neurotypical world)

I can have a dream room and by being stranded spend
little time there because it feels like a emotional jail.
This applies to Sunnyvale, and Fremont as well.

The difference is in my grandmothers old house, computers
were forbidden. I had to lug a 100 pound desktop, monitor,
and keyboard/mouse just to use one in Sunnyvale.

IISi and IICi Macintoshes were the models lugged. I then
moved to Lake Tahoe to live with my Aunt Cathy, and her
husband Tony. I again had to lug a computer system and
no computer places, or bus services worth mentioning there.

BeeBee got this cool cyber bunk bed with computer
desk. This is where I do computer stuff below the bunks
attached desk, and sleep on top of the bunk bed. I have
this wall rack for my 12 Atlas/Marvels from 1950-1962.

There is wifi in the house, but lonliness still prevails
when I leave that glass slipper door. 1/2 hour to a PDQ quickmart
(24hours), 1 hour one way to a crappy free wifi(unreliable network)
Panera breads, or Barnes and Nobles. A 1/2 hour each way to
Caribous Coffee in EvIL Rosemount. There is this 24 hour Denny's
1.15 hours one way.

The Panera bread place closes at 9pm, and the Barnes
and Nobles closes at 11pm, and that is it for wifi anything
and places to go for me. A small universe for a spontaneous
soul, damned just the same.

The problem is not the room, but the leaving it and
seeing empty space, and emotions with no where to
connect. Glass slippers do break and when I leave
this rooms domain door that is when I see the cracks in
those glass slippers.

Most can say housing, car, luxories, and good paying jobs
and that is not me. It is something with a catch, or emotional
flaw.

BeeBee is gracious for allow a dream room, but the strandation
poisoned that. I still got the room, but little in the way
of saying I am happy. BeeBee can provide limited emotional
support, and moral support, and food, but wounds of the heart
and not feeling a balance no one can fix, and I say thanks for her
allowing what little luxories I have, and they emotionally go away
when I leave like the room, or Apple Valley like glass slippers to Cinderella.