Getting the fullness of your interest found out

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For many of my interests, I am terrified of having the extent of my interest discovered. If I reveal the fullness of that extent to someone and the person's response is anything less than approving, I will assume the worst. I will then regret my stupid decision to reveal my innermost thoughts, to make myself vulnerable. In certain contexts, I will fear, or even experience, someone trying to drive me from that interest, the intrusive mf'ers! I will become wracked with shame and a sense of the future becoming blocked, that my actions will be restricted from here on out, that I will be brought into line, that I will have that which makes my soul burn alive with flame extinguished.

Is it the nature of the subject that you're interested in that you're ashamed of?

Or is it the degree of interest in the thing that you're ashamed of?

Or some oombination of both?

Are you into reading about necrophilia, or something?

Or are you like that young person on WP who came out of the closet by confessing to us that that for his whole young life had a repressed longing to ( gasp! how depraved can you get?!)....learn to play the accordion!

I guess his siblings were all into hip-hop, and he thought liking the accordion was some kind of mental illness.

I presumed he meant he was worried about what people would think oh him if they knew the "extent' of his interests ...... his obsessiveness so to speak

My obsessions include music / football / snakes ....... Now the first two are completely acceptable as so many other people share the interest but when some people find out that I keep snakes they are either amazed and intrigued OR are completely disinterested and disgusted !

Haha, I used to play the accordion as a kid – it was great fun!

My current special interest is so weird, everyone thinks I'm nuts. But I don't care, I love it.