Really paranoid about friends

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I don't know if anyone here could help me with this. I feel really paranoid about my friends all the time. I get very anxious and I am convinced that they will dump me. It's like no matter how often they say they like me, I just can't convince myself that they like me. Another thing, I keep feeling intense urges to hug my close friends and be romantic with them and I feel like if I can't do that, I can't trust them, I feel like I'm just not properly connected with them, it feels like something is missing. I am so scared that they will leave me. I feel like I could pay them loads of money or buy them gifts or anything to stop them from leaving me. It's interfering with my life, I can't concentrate on anything and feel like I just can't go on.

Use the evidence they've already given you.

Have they invited you to hang out with them?
They tell you they like you, why not write all this down as 'evidence'.
Give yourself some self-esteem, a bit of a boost.

I understand completely where you're coming from though, I have the same problem.
I use evidence that my friend sent me Pokemon Y in the post, randomly, just because she didn't want me to miss out on the new Pokemon, and she sees me as a good friend, otherwise she wouldn't, and she's also lent me money that I have obviously paid back (and interest because I want to), so I like to remind myself of that.

I have lots of other friends who invite me to hang out with them, swap phone numbers, make conversation starting on their end, etc.

Just thought I'd mention though, are you sort of questioning if these friends actually like you, in front of them? I used to do that, and I was told that it gets very boring/frustrating/annoying etc. and can push people away. If you aren't, I'm glad xD

For years I used to feel the same way about girlfriends, I was always waiting for the 'you're very nice but.......' until it got to the point of being a self fulfilling prophesy. Two things changed this:

1) The advent of computer dating meant that if one relationship failed then I could just move on to the next one until I got it right.

2) The dating equivalent of shell shock, because eventually I got used to relationships failing and it didn't bother me anymore.

I have an autistic friend (a lot of my friends are autistic for some reason), he is a really caring person. He is probably the nicest person I have ever met, but I get jealous when I see him with other people and I feel like no matter how nice he is, I worry about him all the time. I don't want to annoy him or anything, I just feel like there is something missing, I don't feel fulfilled, maybe this will go away after I have known him for a while, since I have only known him for a short time. He feels exactly the same way, he gets really paranoid about people. I just seem to have trouble trusting him and feel like I need physical contact.