Brain disconnect

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Sometimes I have disconnect in my brain where I can see something or hear something. I know what the words are that I am hearing and I know what the objects are that I am seeing but it's like my brain can't connect and register what they are and it's like I am looking at the thing and I have no idea what it is or I am hearing the word and I have no idea what it means. Does anyone else have this?

I was just discussing this with a counselor I see. I have autism and substantial damage to my corpus callosum from a childhood injury. So there are times when I need to access a memory and put it into words or describe what I'm feeling physically or emotionally and I hit a wall - I can't connect and when I push to get the information I can suddenly lose what's in my short term memory ("what were we just talking about?") or I can lose (or have very slow) understanding of words. I'm hearing the words and I know what they are but I can get very far behind in understanding what is being said. Or I can see an object I easily recognize but certain parts of my brain are busy, so I have great trouble registering it or talking about what I'm seeing. I more or less just stare blankly until my slow processing catches up. This was a very big deal at work when someone would be giving me a series of verbal instructions and I would start to get further and further behind in understanding what they were describing - it worked much better if they told me each step while I typed it into the computer - then I was able to process and remember somewhat better. I have to pretend to understand and fake comprehension or wing it if it happens around people who wouldn't understand that I'm not being inattentive or disrespectful. I think the agnosias I have, like prosopagnosia and the inability to really see a whole object at once are related to the above. Pushing info between the hemispheres of my brain can make me stutter incredibly, have tics, and lose my short-term memory. Otherwise I fake normalcy really well... Some info about agnosias: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Agnosia