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21 Aug 2014, 6:09 am

Is there anybody here who is autistic but at some point in their lives, felt like they werent? Ive been autistic for as long as i can remember except for one short period (about less than year)

But during this period i didnt feel like i had any of the symptoms - interaction was easy, eye contact was easy, i actually felt better being around people than on my own, and i never got "stuck" doing the same thing over and over. Change was easy and even fun. I felt like i was living. The only thing that bothered me was that i wasnt as good in school as i used to be and i had to work harder on memorizing things that was so easy to remember before. But talking came naturally, most things just came naturally to me.

But now i feel more "autistic" then i ever been. Is anybody familiar with this?



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21 Aug 2014, 6:47 am

I don't know if i felt "normal" but the closest i've ever gotten to feeling completely well and not even a bit awkward was during my last year on school when i've met some of the nicest people that i've met and they were comprehensive and funny guys.
As far as i remember while i was with them i did not felt pressured and could feel really nice and comfortable even outside of my house. Unfortunately it only lasted for something like 8 months and after we split our ways i wasn't able to keep contact with them and, for a while, i was worse than before.



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21 Aug 2014, 7:38 am

have never felt like anything. :?


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21 Aug 2014, 10:34 am

"Normal" is a relative thing / highly subjective.


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21 Aug 2014, 10:35 am

Ever since the beginning of my cognitive awareness, I have always known that I am weird.



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21 Aug 2014, 11:24 am

A few times. I actually felt socially connected and I enjoyed socializing. I hope I can feel like that more often one day.


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21 Aug 2014, 12:07 pm

I feel normal.


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21 Aug 2014, 12:30 pm

I´ve allways been theweird one and have been problematized a lot.
After University (big deal for me) I had a couple of years, where I felt, shall we say "competent".
"At last", I thought.
It was an official academic personality, who could master anything in a matter of very short time. The belief itself worked some of the way, but only if everything went as expected.
I managed to "cheat" two employers last year during my hunt for a jobtraining with prospects (job afterwards), but only for a short period. Then I fell because I was unable to process things in a turbulent environment and I was adviced by my mentor not to "act" anymore., when it became clear to her, that I had aspergers. Well it was new to me as well.
That was about it....my "normal" period.
The rest of my life - before and after, I have been weird.
After dx, I don´t feel so bad about it.


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21 Aug 2014, 1:36 pm

It's a tough question. Interacting with people has never felt "normal". I guess I feel normal when I'm alone and there's no one to react to my odd traits.


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21 Aug 2014, 4:38 pm

never felt normal, even as far back as age 3.



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21 Aug 2014, 4:44 pm

I felt that I was normal until I recognized the Union Jack before recognizing the Maple Leaf. I carried over a lot of things from my past life, the moment I was born in Canada. I do have the spirit of a Cockney. I know that much.


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21 Aug 2014, 5:00 pm

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21 Aug 2014, 5:00 pm

Well... when I was younger I just didn't care about social interaction. Other children were there to assist me in more elaborate games, not to bond with emotionally. When I eventually started experiencing some connection and wanting more or entering into more complicated social settings, then it started to weigh heavily on me.



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21 Aug 2014, 5:00 pm

No. I've always felt that I have to appear normal at any cost. Many things I've done in my life I've done in a conscious attempt to disguise my deficits. I have studied the theory of expression and gesture in great detail, origins of language, studied non-verbal languages, studied idioms and colloquialisms, studied lip-reading (avoiding eye contact) etc, etc, etc. I fake interest in other people. I fake emotions. I fake expressions. I fake friendliness. I feel like a non-person.


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21 Aug 2014, 5:23 pm

I always felt normal...
But I always thought there was something wrong with most people.

Rationally, that means not normal. But I never felt that way, even when I was the very odd one out and alienated, ostracized and shunned.



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21 Aug 2014, 10:08 pm

Yeah

It doesn't wash off.