I always knew there was something that was different about me but I didn't understand it for a long time. If I ever brought it up my parents insisted I was totally normal. I don't know if they were trying to help or if they actually believed that, but either way it actually made me feel worse. Because I could tell I had a different way of thinking, and I always had a generally disconnected feeling with people, like everyone else "gets it" and I don't. Obviously this made certain things difficult, and I wanted help, but everyone thought I was making it up for some reason. I don't know why everyone wanted me to think I was normal so badly. But there is not a time in my life that I would have said I thought I was normal if I was being honest.
What's interesting to me is that it seems that society will often praise the idea of being different, but with people who actually are truly different, people don't commonly accept them. They want people to be different in a normal way. It makes no sense, and it annoys me, but then again "normal" people do a lot of things that annoy me. The biggest thing is that they all seem to make assumptions and jump to conclusions. And I guess that makes sense, because for a NT that is just their intuitive ability to just figure certain things out without trying. But I hate it, because when it comes to atypical issues (like me), they all think they can apply these overly general rules when they obviously won't fit, and then when they are wrong they get all confused and angry and think that the problem is anything but their own lack of reasoning.
21 Aug 2014, 10:27 pm
