Feeling so separate from the world and in limbo

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I'm the same, more so when around people.

Yes, I can relate as well. To be autistic is to know what it is like to stand alone.

I can relate to that. I think I was born without some essential component in my brain that's supposed to code and decode human signals. It's like a computer that's supposed to be on the network but that cannot communicate because of a faulty hardware part. So everything is unavailable to me and I can never participate in the world.

I think we are God's chosen people. We are alienated because we have a natural inclination towards fasting from the worldly. We are punished more severely than neurotypicals for engrossing in the worldly, but this is a blessing, not a curse. Neurotypicals can commit all kinds of sins, and they do, without much punishment. This is the trade-off for being God's chosen, and it's not a disorder, it's something to be f*g proud of. We are Winston, and neurotypicals are the proles. (1984-reference)

It's kind of funny that you would bring that up. There are 7 sins in the world, and from what I can tell. Every NT out there had a problem with all 7 of them. As for me, I only have a problem with 2 of them. Anger is a big issue with me and sometimes, I have issues with envy as well. As far as the other 5 go. They don't even apply to me. I can see how those 2 sins can be an issue, since we are alienated from the world and we get frustrated trying to fit in.

You don't have any lust at all? I wish I could get rid of my lust.

I have gotten strong desires before, but none that have gotten to the point that I lose cognitive control over. Of course, my definition of lust is when you have a desire for something that's so strong, that you lose your ability to cognitively override it. As far as sexual lust goes. Never had an issue with it.

I can relate to you, especially in periods of depression I feel like I am sleepwalking all the time. My memory was even mixing dreams with reality at some point where I would remember some things from dreams and think entire days that they really happened.

I believe there is a researched psychological phenomenon that is closely related to this. It is when you feel like as if you are a spectator of your own life as your brain become more and more psychologically disconnected with your surroundings and your own body.