Making progress with my paranoia :)

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So, I've been working with my new counselor on the paranoia with thinking someone is spying/tapping my phones& computer. So far, I have finally been able to leave a photo on the hard drive without encryption for at least a full day while deleting it. And I am getting better with not needing Tor/to delete every trace of history. I have allowed my blog and pictures to be on my phone and am being comfortable with just my phone password to protect me and not needing to have special software so my family won't read it. it's important that i do this because my mother thinks I'm schizophrenic and I don't want to go back to the hospital.

I hope your progress continues....otherwise, it would be a waste of the fine mind of a person who is multifaceted and multi-lingual.

I'm very happy for you, and wish you continued success!!

Good job!

I will say that extreme anxiety about something can produce those feelings to start with and you do not have to be schizophrenic to have paranoia.

Hmm.. could be a case of OCD too. Did you perhaps have a violation of privacy at one point?

I did have my privacy violated often when I was young enough that my parents had a "right" to do so, and were often advised to by doctors who were concerned about certain behaviors.

I've still been making progress with the paranoia, but my severe emetophobia is becoming worse again. I have GERD and that makes my fear of vomiting/fear of it being likely even worse. So, now I want to sit and rest after every meal because I belch a lot and it worries me that if I walk around too much after eating that it will make me ill.

Also, unfortunately I'm still fighting with my family and doctors, now about Risperdal. My new doctor is concerned that it makes my prolactin too high, but I consider it a good thing. First of all, this side effect causes my body to be nicer-looking, as I prefer weight gain and curves to the boyish thin/flat look I get when I go off. Also, the Risperdal in combo with my PCOS stops my cycle completely and I take birth control to get a false period. But I LIKE this because no period at all + birth control = absolutely to chance of children which I don't want EVER =no chance of vomiting for that reason.

Doctors, I guess are trained to sexistly try to protect a woman's fertility, but this is the girl who asked her mom for a complete hysterectomy at age 8 that they're talking about! Come on, there is ZERO chance of me changing my mind. 0.