Does this sound like a part of Autism?

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Hi everyone, I would like to ask if this (what i'm about to tell you) is part of autism. Okay so lets just get this straight forward so you can kinda understand what i'm going through right now. I mostly want to be somebody else (a anime character to be specific) that acts just like i wanna act like. I wanna look like her and be like her and sound like her...Seriously this is taking over my life and is worrying my mom. I just wanted to ask you guys if it is part of autism that I have or just something else?

There simply isn't enough information to go on here. There have been times when I too wished I were someone else (i.e. someone more confident, better looking, more popular), but I also experience other things that are a part of what it means to be an 'Aspie' (ex. extreme sensitivity to certain sounds, inability to tell when someone is joking, being very fussy and pedantic, becoming upset when a routine that works the way it is supposed to is suddenly changed by someone else for no good reason...).

I think that weak identity or dissociative identity is very common with autism.

http://psyki.net/wiki/Losing_ourselves

Sounds like it to me. The above poster is completely correct about us having weak identities. I have really no clue about my identity while my peers seem to be able to talk freely about things they usually do and how they would respond in almost any situation. I don't really know what I would do in the same circumstances.

I went through the same thing in fifth grade when I started emulating Garfield the cat; this went on for over a year. I'd sleep facedown with my knees and arms tucked up to my chin under a thin cotton blanket on top of my bed (not in it) because that was how Garfield slept. I had a rubber chicken named Stretch and a stuffed bear named Pookie, and I'd spend hours lying in our living room armchair, my head on one arm rest, my feet dangling over the other. I once even convinced my sister to stay in her bedroom with me for an entire week, emulating the comic strip in which Garfield didn't leave his bed for a week. I'd say your experience is pretty common for an aspie obsessed with a specific character. The whole thing started all over again in seventh grade when I got hooked on Peanuts cartoons. I turned into Linus, complete with the blue blanket which I dragged with me everywhere, despite being twelve years old. I dragged it around with me until I was fourteen, and still have it (though these days it stays in my room.) I would verbally stim, repeating the lines from the animated episodes over and over again, with identical pitch and inflection to the characters (I still do this actually; it's one of my "safe head spaces" that I retreat to when anxious.)

Would this not be a form of social scripting?

Yes, I've been like that with this female bus-driver for a few years now. I think she has Bipolar, and some other issues, but I don't quite know what. I've always wanted to be her. When people ask me why, I cannot give a reason because I don't really know why. I just want to be her. All the men flirt with her and think she's ''hot'' (even though she's in her 60's), and she's so, so good at making conversation with people and becoming really familiar to passengers - even though she's quite hard work and socially awkward. She still knows how to chat away, and also be authoritative. I would love to be like that. She can be a bit mean sometimes, but I don't think she means to. Also she can get mad at people easily, and walk away in a mood and not talk to people for days, until she gets over her little sulk. But people seem to forgive her.

I really wish I was her, or more like her at least. I tried to be authoritative once at work, and really chatty, but it didn't work. I was being something I'm not, and I've learnt a few years ago that it's not always good to do that, because you only mess up. That happened to me before, and I still haven't got over the humiliation.

I don't think it's all that common for ASDers to completely assume the identity of another person, but I know of one WP member who has been Mick Avory of The Kinks for quite a long time now, and the authenticity is quite striking, so it's not unheard of.

I used to emulate one or two of The Beatles quite strongly, so much so that to this day my accent still has a trace of Liverpudlian in it. I also find myself borrowing the talking styles of other people. I think it's because of the script thing like somebody said. Not knowing how to express myself, I copy the style of others who seem to have got it right. It kind of works. But I've never been absolutely immersed in another person, I know it's me really.

Well, I suppose it COULD be part of someone's autism, but there's not enough information here for us to determine if YOU have autism. If you really want to know, ask someone who specializes in the spectrum.