what could this be? I FEEL LIKE I'M ON DRUGS.unique problem?

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I just figured out why I wont achieve crap in my life. It's because I can't make up my mind about my life. what i want to do. what to think. build a personality. any idea about anything.
GOD DAMN REASON:
1. I SEE EVERYTHING, EVERY DETAIL. in a video clip. in a movie. in music.
2. I analyse those on the fly.
3. I conntect those to other stuff, make connections.
4. when I'm doing nothing, I think about stuff and apply 1 to 3.
5. when I have no stuff to think about, I MAKE IMMAGINARY S**T UP, and APPLY 1 to 4 (WTF AM I DOING?)
6. I DO THE SAME IN SLEEP. I'm somewhat capable of math, logic, reading IN SLEEP. (if you know a bit about dreamig, virtually all people aren't)

By doing this crap (and I totally can't stop it), I overload my memory and remember absolutely NOTHING about WTF has happend in my life. I can't form memories. the speed of the CPU just doesn't match the speed of the Hard drive. It's one million times faster.

WTF should I do?

I wish I could have heightened perceptions.

I would try to channel this ability towards positive results.

It's not necessarily a negative.

You should also seek to learn what is extraneous/useless within any situation.

Maybe meditation - with a good teacher - could help you slow down that cpu, when you need it. Perhaps mindfulness would help.

Here's my problem with that happening to me. Not sure if it's as 'hi-rez' as your's are, but while I am trying to filter all that information from all the sensory input I miss other things I think. Pieces of conversations, things other than what I'm focused on. And, the more input, the more narrow that focus becomes. Even to the obvious solutions.

But, I agree that it's also not a negative if you can bring it under control. I'm working on that myself.

Try cutting out wheat

Whether autism or schizophrenia or both (I have both), I would suggest looking into some kind of occupational therapy. I don't necessarily mean a full time therapist, because I know that's expensive. But look into ways to try retraining your brain.