Don't feel like I am *like* other autistic people

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I have high functioning autism. I am also right brained dominant. Being right brained dominant often gives me an advantage over many in the autistic spectrum with respect to adapting to life and in social situations. Combined with having had an extremely abusive childhood whereby I had to adapt or be cruelly humiliated, I became an extremely good actor.

Here is a little something I wrote recently in the second person.

"It is quite ironic that what you regard as one of your greatest achievements, your adaptive skills, became your greatest impediment and barrier to being diagnosed and getting the help you so desperately needed. You simply became too convincing behind your persona of normality for the depth of struggle and heartbreak to reveal itself. It seemed that for every humiliation you received as a child, your mask of so called normality became ever more fused to your being. However, what once served to protect you from abuse and humiliation, was now constricting and crushing."

Life is different for me now. After spending a lifetime studying the human condition, today I am allowing myself to 'be' human.

It has been my experience that it takes time to connect with people in the autistic spectrum, yet if I allow myself that time I can often see through their game and they can see through my game. We can be who we are.

From the looks yes you are different from many autistic people. Many will live their whole lives non-verbal and unable to live independently its a whole other world and simply not your experience. In regards to Aspies and people with High Functioning Autism yes you are likely to have more in common then not.

I have much more in common with the moderately functioning group of aspies.

Herd mentality is everywhere I guess.

There's the spirit of helping people in a similar situation, or in the same diagnosis because you're in the same boat whether or not you're the same. Legal issues, public perception, etc, hurt or help mostly the same. But a lot of people claim they speak for autistics, or women with Asperger's, and nothing they describe is me or what I "need" to do.

I would like to meet another maths/logics-challenged aspie much like meself

Maths was as alien to me as voting for a right wing politician........ Good luck America.

Autism is for me a way of being, and as such can never adequately be conveyed through theories, concepts or analysis. ‘I didn’t arrive,’ said Albert Einstein, ‘at my understanding of the fundamental laws of the universe through my rational mind.’ And I know exactly where he was coming from.

Autism is for me a way of perceiving reality in a particular way. Oscar Wilde enters into this wonderfully when he says, ‘The final mystery is oneself. When one has weighed the sun in the balance, and measured the steps of the moon, and mapped out the seven heavens star by star, there still remains oneself. Who can calculate the orbit of his own soul?’

Your welcome. I'm always inspired to hear your take on things AB.........

I'm wishing you well and all Americans in this time........

Peace