Worried about my housing situation again
I've lived well with this family for the last few months, but the lady who is the one I'm renting from and prepares my food has become more distant, and so has her mother. Like, I said hello to her mother multiple times and at most she gave a small smile back. Then, just now, when I was eating a late-night snack, the lady comes downstairs as if to check on the kitchen and she seems to make a small gasp and quickly returns upstairs.
This has me worried that I am soon to lose my housing, that she will terminate my month-to-month lease. I don't know where else I would go.
Anyway, I've noticed throughout my entire life that I can get on with people well at first, but then it seems like people always end up disliking me after a few months. I'm wondering what I did to get these responses. Perhaps it's because I haven't been feeling well and have had more sensory issues lately making me feel out of it, causing my appetite to become erratic (making it more difficult for her as she cooks for me; this is a room and board)? Perhaps it's because I'm not more outgoing? Perhaps it's because, since getting new clothes with her help and noticing that people seemed to see me as a woman more, I've started wearing a bra, freaking her and her mom out?
Then again, she took me to get my new clothes, offered me clothes in a drawer, helped me keep my room orderly this past weekend, and has continued to try to make the rental arrangement work.
I'm so confused, and now I don't feel so secure anymore.
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"You have a responsibility to consider all sides of a problem and a responsibility to make a judgment and a responsibility to care for all involved." --Ian Danskin
Good news. I talked to them about it and they assured me it had nothing to do with me. They say that the hot weather has probably contributed to some of it, and I must say the hot weather was affecting me like that too.
I like this arrangement. I seem to have a healthy relationship with the family, not too close yet not estranged. We have healthy respect for each other and we know we can safely bring up concerns with the other party. We seem to have the right amount of distance between each other. The lady I'm renting from has been helpful, cleaning my room with me and directing me in the process. (She knew when we signed the lease that I had these issues.)
So this is a good 180 degree turnaround from last night!
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"You have a responsibility to consider all sides of a problem and a responsibility to make a judgment and a responsibility to care for all involved." --Ian Danskin
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