As shameful as it is for me to admit, my only friends over the past decade have been my parents, my niece and my two dogs, both of whom are now dead. I have now reached the conclusion that I am not programmed to have friends in the conventional sense. I cannot keep a conversation going, and I am too self-absorbed and insular to express a genuine interest in others. I frequently see how happy others are when they encounter someone they know, and it pains me that my reaction to such an occurrence is quite the opposite. I do not belong in this world, and in many respects long for the day that my life ends.
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"Every day, once a day, give yourself a present. Don't plan it, don't wait for it, just let it happen. " - Special Agent Dale Cooper, Twin Peaks