...Frankly ---- for one, I cry more or less instantly when I think of having been denied uni - sleepwear college
. But, to a certain level, my tears about that rather stand in for tears about the rape
and about, this is perhaps a bigger factor in f*****g me up, what I call the Thorazine and Mellaril in my sig
. That and whatever other psychoactive drugs J was forced to take, which I believe fucmed me up
. Both during the lengthy time I was involuntarily hospitalized starting when I was 2p and in shorter hospitaljsations afterwards, I was forced this f*****g goddamn psychoactive medications and I.believe they really f****d me up
. There's, symbolically, having my 21st birthday in a state mental hospital too
. If I have to be approved by a shrink to get the PTSD title - I kind of hate all shrinks because of what they did to me
. However, perhaps I'd have to deal with one to get the " PTSD " title. Maybe such a tie, added on to all that I have, could get .me a nice place/room? Maybe deal with a psych, hold my nose, to get that
?
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.

My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!