Even a “geeky” Meet Up group didn’t work out for me

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30 Nov 2019, 10:45 pm

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I live in an area that is largely religious and socially conformist. If you aren’t a Christian and keep up with whatever the media is pushing, you can pretty much forget about having a social life. A few years ago, however, I thought I had some hope when a Meet Up group called The Collective formed in my area. It was meant for fans of science fiction or at least non-mainstream movies and gaming of all sorts. I was a member until April of this year but even when I did go on a semi-regular basis, I still felt like I didn’t fit in. Despite being listed as a “geeky” group, there was still a lot of drinking and the typical “roughness” of the Killeen-Temple-Fort Hood culture, especially among the men in the group. I kept finding myself pushed to the wayside because I didn’t drink and there were few actual discussions on science fiction. When it came to music, it was just mainstream acts that more or less everyone knows about.

There were a handful of actual “geeks” in the group but even with them I got pushed to the wayside. I thought being a fan of Guilty Gear when it comes to video games and anime like Made in Abyss would be accepted but apparently if you don’t follow Pokémon religiously and watch every trendy anime, you aren’t a “real geek”. Instead of being accepted as an individual, I was rejected just like the rednecks, ghetto thugs, and general Bible Belters still do to me.

I don’t fit in anywhere. I am rejected by both the “normal” and “geeky” worlds.


Welcome friend! I know the feeling.



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01 Dec 2019, 1:06 am

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maybe you could start your own group and advertise it in your area. You can publish details in the classifieds and on bulletins at nearby libraries (I've often seen groups advertised in this way). Taking the lead will force you into the center of things, at least.

I agree with this suggestion. I've started several small groups of my own at various times throughout my adult life.


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01 Dec 2019, 11:42 am

Mona Pereth wrote:
Pedant wrote:
maybe you could start your own group and advertise it in your area. You can publish details in the classifieds and on bulletins at nearby libraries (I've often seen groups advertised in this way). Taking the lead will force you into the center of things, at least.

I agree with this suggestion. I've started several small groups of my own at various times throughout my adult life.


It’s too late for me to do that.



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03 Dec 2019, 11:39 am

I live in NYC, where people pride themselves on being huge freaks.

Even here, I don't fit in anywhere.

Such is life. Even the other dorks reject you when you have Asperger's.

A horrendous disability.



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03 Dec 2019, 1:03 pm

It's really not THAT horrendous.

For God's Sake....we are not lepers!



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03 Dec 2019, 3:52 pm

Marknis wrote:
Mona Pereth wrote:
Pedant wrote:
maybe you could start your own group and advertise it in your area. You can publish details in the classifieds and on bulletins at nearby libraries (I've often seen groups advertised in this way). Taking the lead will force you into the center of things, at least.

I agree with this suggestion. I've started several small groups of my own at various times throughout my adult life.


It’s too late for me to do that.


Why is that?



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03 Dec 2019, 6:31 pm

Sweetleaf wrote:
Marknis wrote:
Mona Pereth wrote:
Pedant wrote:
maybe you could start your own group and advertise it in your area. You can publish details in the classifieds and on bulletins at nearby libraries (I've often seen groups advertised in this way). Taking the lead will force you into the center of things, at least.

I agree with this suggestion. I've started several small groups of my own at various times throughout my adult life.


It’s too late for me to do that.


Why is that?


I’ve fallen too far behind socially. I can’t hang out with people in their 20’s or even 30’s because I am a “creepy loser” in their eyes and people older me think I am a “stupid kid”.

Even when I tried to make myself like trendy things like mainstream hard rock and metal (Disturbed, Godsmack, Killswitch Engage, Chimaira, Slipknot, Mudvayne) and violent FPS games, those didn’t translate to social success. Even if I got into Five Finger Death Punch or Imagine Dragons, played Call of Duty or GTA on a regular basis, and watched Game of Thrones just so I could fanboy about the blood and sex (the people I know who watch it don’t talk about anything else about it nor read the original Song of Fire and Ice novels), I doubt it would change anything. The fact I prefer the Melvins and Napalm Death when it comes to music, Guilty Gear and Final Fantasy when it comes to video games, and Berserk when it comes to dark fantasy gets me considered to be a “weirdo” but it’s too late to try to be part of the crowd.



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05 Dec 2019, 1:08 pm

I’ve been told I should live well instead of trying to prove those who hurt me wrong but I don’t even live ok.



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08 Dec 2019, 8:50 am

DorkyNerd wrote:
I live in NYC, where people pride themselves on being huge freaks.

Even here, I don't fit in anywhere.

Such is life. Even the other dorks reject you when you have Asperger's.

A horrendous disability.


I had an anime club back in high school and by the time I shut it down I fell out with every single one of them. Some of them fell out with anime and weren't into it anymore and others were simply just not friend of mine period.