Do you only see yourself as "different"?

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I haven't been diagnosed with AS but I do meet some of the criteria and several people close to me (my mother, for one) are convinced that I have it. I pretty much agree.

I was wondering if anyone else only saw themselves as "different" and tended to see everyone else as normal, even people who are quite eccentric and "abnormal" in their own ways? This is the way that I tend to be. I can recognise oddities in people, and I am well aware that such people as psychopaths are far, far from the norm - but when it comes to people with other disorders, or mild eccentricities, even though they would be considered different by many people, I tend to see them as normal and only see myself as the "different" one. For example, I'm friends with a guy who has ADHD and he'll say that he's weird. I can see that he's different to a lot of other people but I don't view him as all that weird, especially in comparison to myself. I'll always insist that I'm the weird one and he's normal. Is anyone else this way?

Before knowing AS I used to believe everybody had their own individuallity, in the same way I had. But them, after a superficial examination, I noticed NTs share their own and same soul, in such a way that they have a kind of colective existence.

Before I was diagnosed I sometimes used to wonder why I wasn't like other people, and it often used to upset me a great deal because I felt so isolated.

Now I know why I am the way I am, I'm not so flustered by it...

I've always thought of myself as different, ever since I was in pre-school.

I mean pretty much, other than handicapped people or noticing stuttering or delays in their speech everybody seems normal to me. They join in conversations and STAY in conversations easily. Their routine isn't strange. But I look at myself and I even know that I'm strange & paranoid. I've always been to myself since kindergarden.

Yes. I used to think I was the only one. I'm so glad I found this place.

That is what you are asking, right? If we feel like we are the only ones? No one else seems to have answered your question.

I used to think that everybody had it better than me. Self denial can be your own worst enemy. I do agree that NT's are just a different animal. We are all individuals and don't need to belong to a group as much but it is nice to have something like WT to share experiences. If all the aspies would come out of the closet and work together it would be a great thing.

Yes, in fact that's how I explain my Aspie quirks, by saying I'm odd, weird, or different.

Before I was diagnosed, I couldn't understand why I was different. I was treated differently than others and I couldn't figure out why. I felt I had bad luck so I tried hard to be like everyone else and be treated the same as everyone. I fought it in my preteens and didn't give up. I fought it somewhat in my teens because I was treated pretty much like everyone else finally and the fact kids didn't pick on special need kids.

I have a good friend with severe ADD, and I always felt like I could relate to her in a way that I couldn't with other people. I do feel different from most people, but there are always a few where this isn't the case.

Yes, all the time.

I was sorta taught that I was different over the years...if that makes sense....

Not really.

I don't really see people, and I just see myself as...nothing.

Having grown up with my mom, who was very obsessed with appearances and what was "normal" or "embarrassing," and often compared, directly or indirectly, with my social, normal-looking, normal-functioning brother, I did get a very clear sense that there was me and there was the rest of the world. Thankfully, I've met some people who are odd enough to make me realize that I'm not completely alone. However, the number of people who are as odd as myself are few and far between, and even around other odd people it's rare that our differences match up all that much.

Basically, but what I also mean is...say, if you were around another person with another disorder, such as ADHD, or something like that - even though other people might see a person with ADHD as being different or slightly odd, would you see that person as normal? At least in comparison to myself? My friend with ADHD is different to other people, that's true, but I can't accept that he's weird, if he says he is, I'll always say, "Not as weird as I am" or "You're normal, I'm the weird one", something like that. Even with other autistic people, it's always me who is the "weird" one and they're the "non-weird" people.

I think I do.. I am not the girl I see when I look in the mirror.. And there are like 5 different types of "me". I find it really hard to describe my self.