KevinLA wrote:
is the times people actually tried to be my friend and I was a jerk.
I didn't know I was being a jerk, but that is what AS does.
I wasn't realized until late 30's. For me, looking at the destruction and what the books say about long-term relationships.
I told one long-time business friend: "It is the definition of a clinical a**hole"

You really can't help it. If you aren't willful or evil, you have to face that you are a turnoff.
I think it doesn't help that society was climbing to an all time level of shallowness. that seems to be reversing....