millie wrote:
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Learning2Survive wrote:
pleasing others is how aspies express compassion and empathy.
this makes absolute sense to me.
Me too. Absolutely.
As simple as this is, it had never occurred to me in quite that way before.
What a revelation... I mean, god... I've done this my whole life...
When I was young, I was always anxious about getting good grades to please parents and teachers.
As an adolescent and young adult, I did anything to please people so that maybe one of them would just be my friend.
Didn't work. And I ended up taking a lot of abuse because of it.
In my supreme naivete, I assumed that other people had good intentions,
and that I could get closer to them by doing things to make them happy.
I guess I was just trying to show empathy. Trying to be human to other people. Trying anything to be social.
I still do this.
In my daily experiences, I almost always subconsciously frame my speech and actions to be what I think others will want to hear and see. It must seem as if I have no will of my own.
In my handful of romantic relationships, I automatically tried to be whatever I thought the other person wanted. I was never myself. I just tried to do anything to please the other person. They all saw right through it, and that's why all my relationships have fallen apart.
wow, this really does explain a lot.
So yes, I really like to please others, and I hate the fact that I do.
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