does anyone else with a.s. feel that life has been a waste?

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Life is tough and sleep is one of the best parts of it. The only people who might prefer waking life are probably mainly children (ones groeing up without abuse and not in war torn areas) and evil people like aforementioned nasty arms dealers, disingenuous lawyers, degenerate politicians, etc.--and their families who might benefit greatly from being related.

Had held ontohopes things wouuld be different when , i grew up .aside from a few years ..
Literally .. the consequences of having lived those few years .. in retrospect cost me..
Very badly .. and am not being silly here. Inspite of being told was angel those few years and fighting chronic illness at the same time , Not asd ! If that person , had been married to all those years might still be amongst us..People that targeting me , had not taken his life . To try to get control over me.
And my assets ., so stupid . Only owned a few acres of dirt and a mobile home.worked hard for, And this wonderful relationship . But they had nothing. By gaslighting the authorities and myself , but , my gullibility level had gone away sometime before that. But judicial system there and law enforcement were so fooled by these people . They literally could Not , see the facts . Even firing the victims advocate for court ,that proved the facts. So am holding these and worse memories . So , may reverse this question ?" Has life been a waste ..? " Might never had met this twice decorated airforce veteran . Woulda been merciful if they had killed me instead,but they woulda lost control
Of stuff around me. Was all in my name and they planned on my being stupid.
He Had been raised good christian ,( for , what we both considered that , possibly non advantageous ) ,even graduated at a military school . He had contracted a illness,morgellons disease , otherwise very healthy. And we had happiness most all of the time. was this LIFE a waste , is it

Due to the recent events beyond my control, all of the things I've worked on for the past five years have been completely destroyed. I don't know how much, if anything, I'll get back and for how long I'll be out of commission. I don't feel my life has been completely wasted, however, because I have made a lot of friends and they check up on me to see how I'm doing and to give me updates on future events.

I am 55 but, in terms of life experience, I'm probably closer to my early 20s. My progress has taken a lurch backwards.

As we become older and wiser, it's possible to become increasingly indifferent. We even find-out to reassess our strengths in order to deal with at least some of our weaknesses. Best of all, such wisdom is quite productive, and might just triumph over those notions of waste!

I finally figured out the proper cocktail o' meds to give me what passes for an ordinary mind when I was 50.
I felt great for a few hours, then got depressed as hell. All of the missed opportunities, all of the squandered time. I survived the first 50 years of my life, barely held on.

Now I'm "better" when I am fifty, fat, grey haired, and used to being weird?

Its like a joke was played on me.