chocolate
Between 2012 and August 2022, ate one serving of chocolate a day. (about 200 calories). Some articles claim that chocolate feels like love in the brain. 2016, gave up plenty of foods that I used to love, eat often, and eat a lot of: sweet potatoes, Clif bars. Gave them up immediately, permanently, drastically, and easily. Do not even crave them. However, chocolate took a lot of time and effort to give up. It was like a drug addiction or something.
Physically and emotionally, have not noticed any changes in my worthless corpse since giving up chocolate. However, it is not a controlled experiment. When I was eating chocolate, I was 29 to 39.5 years old. Now I am 41.5 years old. So, all things equal, (which they are not), if I am (or if I were) the same physically and emotionally @ 41.5, as I was @ 29, then I am actually improving. On the other hand, not all variables can be measured or controlled. Weight has remained the same. (However, percent body fat could have gone up while weight stayed the same). Blood pressure and pulse about the same. Bloodwork looks about the same (although plenty of other factors could be influencing bloodwork, not just chocolate.) When I was 40 years and 2 months old, I started having to take a nap, two hours after waking up, on days off work. Otherwise, energy levels have been about the same for the past two years. On the other hand, it is not possible to measure energy levels, and other factors could be affecting energy levels too. Always been uptight/edgy. Loud noises scare me, but it's always been like that. Touch sensitivity.
In the past two years, I have not changed in any significant way, that I know of, thus far: athletically, mentally, emotionally, socially, financially, occupationally.
However, still craving chocolate.
Considering, after work anniversary 4 years, October 8, 2024, considering that from that day on, I eat one serving of chocolate (max) per day, for the rest of my stupidass "life".
My "life" has gone sideways. When I was 12, I just assumed that by 41, I would've accomplished *something*. But, *no*. (rolls eyes). I feel like a f*****g failure. No STEM job/degree/license. Not even a professional job, s**t. I feel so f*****g ashamed of myself. Home Depot does background checks, but also hires convicted felons. The job description says "lift fifty pounds", but there is no lifting test. When a job interviewer asks "Can you lift fifty pounds?", anyone could answer "yes". They might not "know" they can lift fifty pounds, or maybe they lifted fifty pounds ten years ago, or maybe they lifted a barbell. But lifting fifty pounds of concrete is much harder than lifting a fifty pound barbell, <i>even though they both weigh fifty pounds </i>. And then, as a Lot Attendant, you are often lifting more than one bag of concrete. And you sometimes have to lift the concrete over your head, onto the ground, or in an awkward configuration. Zero "friends". Single, zero children. No car. Minimum wage, part time job that any old monkey could do. Physically much weaker than I would have wanted or expected (based on effort). Mentally much slower. Academically stupider. Socially awkward and emotionally fragile. Bowel movements a disaster. Back pain. Itchy. And only 41 and rapidly getting worse, s**t.
Chocolate I used to eat daily: Twix, Kit Kat, Reese's.
Considering giving up. I've been over the hill for a longfuck time. "You only live once." Giving up chocolate is not a LinkedIn accomplishment. s**t. Plenty of precious lil "people", 65 years old, work two full time jobs. Restaurant, retail, sales. Standing up jobs. Minimum wage, menial labor, manual labor. And they are in worse health than me and they are fatter than me. But "life" goes on. My workplace has plenty of fat employees, and they appear to be able to do the same things as skinny people, and that includes living long lifespans. Some of them are married, have children, have second jobs, drive cars, have friends, talk on the phone, go on vacations for a couple of weeks. And some of those fat employees are 75, 69, or 65 years old.
On the other hand, considering just making my diet stricter, b/c for Lot Attendant, I have to be in better health.
Nature vs nurture
nothing i do is ever good enough, s**t.
october 8,
12 days away s**t
craving chocolate like f**k.
it's weird, there's no food i really want, even though i only eat the same couple of foods every day, and got sick of them a long time ago. but $$$ and do not know how to cook and trying to not gain weight and other ret*d forms of BS s**t.
some articles claim that chocolate feels like love in the brain.
french fries
lasagna
fried chicken
ice cream
salmon
sushi
burritos
tacos
french fries
donuts
pie
pancakes
I thought that if I gave up chocolate I would lose weight, better blood work, less uptight, more energetic and better sleep.
But I am still the same as when I ate one kit Kat a day at age 39.5
On the other hand maybe if I were to have eaten one kit Kat a day for the last two years, maybe my health would be even worse than it is now
I don't know
Dropped tool
Identity theft
Sick
Missed insurance deadline
Tattle tale tom, other coworkers and day laborers and customers bothering me
Wet in the rain all day long
Disaster bowel movements
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Depends. Chocolate has theobromine. It's a lot like caffeine - a mild stimulant. Not as strong an effect as caffeine but the effect lasts longer.
A kitkat a day would be unlikely to disrupt sleep or make you feel uptight, but eating lots of chocolate, particularly dark chocolate which has more of it, would probably disrupt sleep. Especially if you eat it a few hours before bed.
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A kitkat a day would be unlikely to disrupt sleep or make you feel uptight, but eating lots of chocolate, particularly dark chocolate which has more of it, would probably disrupt sleep. Especially if you eat it a few hours before bed.
Afaik the little bit of milk chocolate on a Kit Kat only would contain a very negligible amount of theobromine. It's not like eating a significant amount of dark chocolate.
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You got a similar set of diet like I do.
Except I have genes that prevents me from becoming visibly obese, on top of my habit of walking for several hours and my crappy sleep quality...
But inside, metabolically, I'm vulnerable, sensitive, intolerant, inefficient and likely unhealthy on top of my family history of paternal side of metabolic issues.
I've searched that metabolic issues do cause executive dysfunction and brain fog.
Looking at my family history and my paternal side relatives dietary habits makes me not wanna be like them.
Oh, sure, they're NTs; they can afford those metabolic issues, make do, adapt and cope, still run businesses and have full time jobs...
But I can't afford those same issues like they do. I already knew that.
While I'm trying to progress painfully slowly throughout the years on what I should eat; it helped that I got over emotional issues that made me a bit too dependent on comfort foods as a means to quell hidden hurts and internal intolerance; things beyond external stress that is clearly not yet looked like "anxiety".
I'm not 30 yet. I have time. Limited time.
I give myself until age of 60 before giving up and just die of whatever malnutrition or health complications if living in a whiny body just feels so inconvenient...
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haven't eaten chocolate thus far
craving it like f**k s**t
upcoming milestones:
11/1, first day of november
11/3 daylight savings time
11/5 election day
11/7 insurnace
11/21, insurance closed
11/25 old mans birthday
thanksgiving
black friday
christmas
kwanzaa
new years eve
new years day
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pretty soon i'm gonna be like former lot attendant adam. he was so f*****g fat he barely fit through the stupidass hallway. he hardly ever did jack s**t. even less than that lazy lil girl initials N.O. (rolls eyes).
cravings gone haywire
coworkers eating:
mcdonalds
food cart
raising cains
panda express
popeyes
burger king
guadalajara
in n out
yesterday was daylight savings time. tomorrow is election day. november 11, veterans day. november 7, insurance day.
chocolate
peanut butter
cookies
fried chicken
muffins
when i feel sad, scared, angry, depressed, or anything like that, crave emotional overeating.
s**t.
some articles say that chocolate feels like love in the brain.