Just feeling the need to vent again...
Last time I checked, I'm a little over 180lbs, (can't exactly check right now, due to reasons), and I'm almost 5'8.
There are times where I look at myself thinking that my weight is "appropriate" for someone as tall as I am, but then there are other times where I feel like I could do so much better for myself... You know, it just leaves me feeling pretty conflicted.
I've been exercising practically almost everyday, and even cut out a few things from my old diet for much more healthier things, but it's been a little hard on me, lately...
I don't want to feel worthless to some people, I want to feel cherished and desired... I shouldn't have to feel this way around my own Birthday, but yet I do.
I'm hoping once my well check with my pediatrician rolls around, he can give me his own professional opinion on where I should be at, but I can't help but still have this feeling eating away at me...
It just really sucks being stuck in a rut like this, feeling unsure over what to do.