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RamblingChronicPK
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03 Nov 2011, 10:10 pm

I am that guy. I am the poster child for asperger's and I have been extremely bipolar for the last 10 years. That is just when I was diagnosed. As an added bonus I have nerve damage on the side of my brain. I take 28 pills a day just to stay alive. I decided to do all I could to do my part of dealing with it. I started eating right and started running. I just finished my first half marathon two weeks ago. I have been doing a podcast to try to help others for going on a year now. Rambling Chronic on iTunes. I am so glad I found this web site. I really thought there was no one like me in the world. If you get a chance, check out my podcast. Regardless I would love to hear from you if you can relate to me. I am amazed at how well my podcast is doing because in person relationships have always been unbelievably difficult. I understand all of the concepts but I seem to get them mixed up when faced with the randomness of real life conversation. I plan everything. I have to set everything out exactly the same way every day or I get lost and forget something like my lunch. I am so excited that I found this site. Everyday I add a prayer to my website. If you need or want that, let me know as well. I am married, have kids, but still exist alone mostly. Talk to me.



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03 Nov 2011, 11:05 pm

I'm described as having a case of mild Aspergers, no medication. I can get through most things but things like routine and having a bit of 'me' time is important to me. How do you get through the day?



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04 Nov 2011, 6:33 am

Hi, I am Aspergers and Bipolar too. Well, I have one confirmed diagnosis of Bipolar 2, a second "unsure", and am going to see a third in a few days (as some symptoms are atypical), but I did my research and I am sure.

I came up with something earlier that I think describes some aspect of the combination well (as many symptoms of Aspergers and Bipolar seem oppositional). "Asperger's logic counteracts Bipolar irrationality, Bipolar impulsivness counteracts Asperger's rigidity." What do you think?


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04 Nov 2011, 10:25 am

sunshower wrote:
Hi, I am Aspergers and Bipolar too. Well, I have one confirmed diagnosis of Bipolar 2, a second "unsure", and am going to see a third in a few days (as some symptoms are atypical), but I did my research and I am sure.

I came up with something earlier that I think describes some aspect of the combination well (as many symptoms of Aspergers and Bipolar seem oppositional). "Asperger's logic counteracts Bipolar irrationality, Bipolar impulsivness counteracts Asperger's rigidity." What do you think?


Contradictions, and yet they are there. When I get emotional the 'bipolar' part, my logic seems to go out the window and my emotions take over. However, when I get back to my 'normal' self, the logic takes over and I think this way. But then I look back at how I acted when the emotions worked, think "Why could I not act logically", and then end up blaming and hating myself in the end for being so unable to control myself and do what would make more sense.

Life can be difficult, and I've been trying to figure out these contradicting emotions and senses with the logical part of myself.

If we all got off topic from the first post...well, it happens? xD



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04 Nov 2011, 11:00 am

The way I live is by setting everything out the night before. Then I go through the same motions until I get to work. Obviously that is different everyday. I am a top manager in my job and have always excelled. I self taught myself to be an engineer because all the numbers made sense to me so I was really good at it. It is strange because I was never very good at math. Well I got frustrated that the company wasn't able to ship stuff on time so I created a program that c ontrolled everything. Every machine to every last box, I know was is going on and we became the best in the world in a 24 billion dollar world wide company. I never could get the top position though because when I lost my emotions, I would just go off. Things where out of order so I would go crazy and do any thing to get them back in order. It coarse me on marriage. My second one has been challenged because until recently I was unaware of the asperger's so she saw me as arrogant and controlling but emotionally all over the place. Add chronic passion to that and you have a recipe for disaster. I have had few friends. Everyone thinks I am a great caring guy but yet no one gets really close as a friend because I seem so weird.



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04 Nov 2011, 11:06 am

RamblingChronicPK wrote:
The way I live is by setting everything out the night before. Then I go through the same motions until I get to work. Obviously that is different everyday. I am a top manager in my job and have always excelled. I self taught myself to be an engineer because all the numbers made sense to me so I was really good at it. It is strange because I was never very good at math. Well I got frustrated that the company wasn't able to ship stuff on time so I created a program that c ontrolled everything. Every machine to every last box, I know was is going on and we became the best in the world in a 24 billion dollar world wide company. I never could get the top position though because when I lost my emotions, I would just go off. Things where out of order so I would go crazy and do any thing to get them back in order. It coarse me on marriage. My second one has been challenged because until recently I was unaware of the asperger's so she saw me as arrogant and controlling but emotionally all over the place. Add chronic passion to that and you have a recipe for disaster. I have had few friends. Everyone thinks I am a great caring guy but yet no one gets really close as a friend because I seem so weird.


I know how this can feel. I do care and want to help others, and be nice, but then I have the weirdness deep inside that when they get to know me, it makes them skitter away. I'm not good at picking up people's social cues and body language, but I can really empathize with their feelings and emotions. It's almost as if I can sense...their energy at times, especially if they're sad. I hate going into hospitals, especially into areas where people are sick or hurt, because it feels so negative and sad that I want to feel negative and sad, but then if I go into a room full of happy people, I can pick up on the happiness and I feel a little happier. So, when people are happy, I feel happier, and so I want people to be happy even though it's so difficult for me to really be happy on the inside.



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04 Nov 2011, 11:22 am

That is very close to how I am which is why I started my podcast. At Rambling Chronic On iTunes.. I could share my positive energy with others and not be brought down by actually knowing them personally. My show has done well because I have a lot of experience. With a lot of stuff but personal friendship and loneliness are my curse. I run allot and do all I can to take care of myself. I help everyone I can but I can't always get jokes or sarcasm. I feel like I am the only one who does get them.



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04 Nov 2011, 11:28 am

Perhaps if you start making them and doing sarcasm with yourself, you'll begin to understand other people's a bit more. Perhaps start as simple with something such as puns, or play on words. This is what I term as "Aspergers jokes', not quite as many NT seem to understand them, but I do so well, and I LOVE them to pieces, and they fit in with our literal thinking. Then from there, go on to other forms of jokes and comedy. Maybe a jokes website where you have time to mull over a joke and figure it out and don't have to laugh right off the bat and then feel stupid when you don't first get it.



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04 Nov 2011, 12:24 pm

LunaUlysses wrote:
sunshower wrote:
Hi, I am Aspergers and Bipolar too. Well, I have one confirmed diagnosis of Bipolar 2, a second "unsure", and am going to see a third in a few days (as some symptoms are atypical), but I did my research and I am sure.

I came up with something earlier that I think describes some aspect of the combination well (as many symptoms of Aspergers and Bipolar seem oppositional). "Asperger's logic counteracts Bipolar irrationality, Bipolar impulsivness counteracts Asperger's rigidity." What do you think?


Contradictions, and yet they are there. When I get emotional the 'bipolar' part, my logic seems to go out the window and my emotions take over. However, when I get back to my 'normal' self, the logic takes over and I think this way. But then I look back at how I acted when the emotions worked, think "Why could I not act logically", and then end up blaming and hating myself in the end for being so unable to control myself and do what would make more sense.


Well it is like that for me too, but the insight is comforting despite the blaming and self-hating (which is a decade long problem of mine anyway due to Asperger's related social faux pas).

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Life can be difficult, and I've been trying to figure out these contradicting emotions and senses with the logical part of myself.


Yes, ultimately for me insight and self-understanding is the most important thing of all. Thus I am glad of the Asperger's because I believe it will help me to keep a clear head long term.

If we all got off topic from the first post...well, it happens? xD[/quote]


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04 Nov 2011, 11:37 pm

Does not the aspergers leave you lonely? I work with allot of people but I am 41 years old and still do not fit in?



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05 Nov 2011, 8:07 pm

I'm currently in the diagnosis stage for bipolar, although unsure if I have that specific mood disorder yet. I am definitely an aspie however, with a firm diagnosis and extensive research over 9 years. You're not alone, you'll always find someone that has similar circumstances to yourself. If there's one thing this site has taught me it is this.


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05 Nov 2011, 11:35 pm

RamblingChronicPK wrote:
I am that guy. I am the poster child for asperger's and I have been extremely bipolar for the last 10 years. That is just when I was diagnosed. As an added bonus I have nerve damage on the side of my brain. I take 28 pills a day just to stay alive. I decided to do all I could to do my part of dealing with it. I started eating right and started running. I just finished my first half marathon two weeks ago. I have been doing a podcast to try to help others for going on a year now. Rambling Chronic on iTunes. I am so glad I found this web site. I really thought there was no one like me in the world. If you get a chance, check out my podcast. Regardless I would love to hear from you if you can relate to me. I am amazed at how well my podcast is doing because in person relationships have always been unbelievably difficult. I understand all of the concepts but I seem to get them mixed up when faced with the randomness of real life conversation. I plan everything. I have to set everything out exactly the same way every day or I get lost and forget something like my lunch. I am so excited that I found this site. Everyday I add a prayer to my website. If you need or want that, let me know as well. I am married, have kids, but still exist alone mostly. Talk to me.


Hi PK, yes this an awesome site. I'm also bi-polar, some OCD, a lot of phobias, social anxieties and as an added bonus, an aspie. I've been diagnosed with my depression around 20 years ago. I also have Fibromyalgia. I am really looking forward to downloading and listening to your podcast. I also have to take a lot of medications each day (there are 44 of them). It's a lot worse if I don't take them though. I'm also married, my husband and I just celebrated our 25th anniversary in August. No kids, but we have a dog, cat and 2 snakes. I'll try to remember to download your podcast tomorrow (although I've had some difficulty with podcasts in the past (not the computer, I just can't think and reason things out like I used to), but I'd really like to hear your podcast. Wish me luck....LOL


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05 Nov 2011, 11:43 pm

It is very nice to meet you. I hope you get a chance to listen. I would like to know what you think about it. I am putting a new episode up tomorrow so by tomorrow evening around 6:00 it should be up on iTunes. If you go to iTunes, just search Rambling Chronic. That should take you straight to it. I look forward to your opinion if you get a chance. Regardless, it us nice to meet you. Do you work outside the home? How much prep do you do each day for the next day?



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06 Nov 2011, 8:45 am

Hi there, I've got the 'byps' as my girlfriend calls it too.
I was taking lithium for about 12 years and weened myself off at the beginning of this year.
I got diagnosed with asperger's this year which cam to no surprise to a few people I know.
Anxiety and OCD too.
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12 Nov 2011, 12:00 am

OMFG your brain is my brain! Parietal lobe?