Negative self-talk

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Does anyone tend to do this? I imagine someone else who tells me extremely negative things which make me depressed.

When I made a decision at work, I switched to imagining that my team
lead was demanding that I justify it, and I responded aloud in a whisper the
thought process that went into my decision.

Has anyone had this?

My self-talk has always been very negative. It's probably why I have such low self-esteem. I'm afraid to change because I feel like if I start telling myself positive things, it will make me self-centered.

Yeah I tend to have negative self talk and also negative thoughts build up and manifest inside me it tends to bring me into a meltdown and I constantly call myself a failure and a pathetic loser and question why I was ever brought into existance if I am to be a failure. It tends to build up into physical self harm usually self punching biting my arms and scratching myself I may do this for hours on end until I am exhausted.[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DQ2SbavmcmE[/youtube]

As years go by, I start loving myself more and more and the negative self-talk gets less and less.

I think negative thoughts about myself,I'm on S.S.I. so I feel like a mooch,then I try to think of something I could do to earn my way but my constant bouts with severe depression keep me from that.Even if I was offered the best job in the world I would lose it,there would be a day (or weeks) when I'm too depressed to leave the house.I've tried to think of ways to earn money at home but you still have to be together for that.I'm a talented artist but there's lots of them,and art supplies are expensive,I can't afford to buy what I want.This makes me feel like I'm lazy and worthless,like I should be doing something,but what?

It happens every time I wake up.

"Dad hated me ... I wasn't meant to be born ... nobody wanted me ...", et cetera.

Some days, it doesn't seem worth chewing through the straps just to get out of bed ...

I wouldn't really describe it as imagining it, seems like there actually is someone telling me the negative things, I know there is not but it actually seems like there is. It can get rather aggravating at times because its like I have no control over it and can't just turn off the off switch. But yeah I suppose I don't feel that great about myself.

My negative self-talk has reduced to something with the quality of cartoon-like babble in my head now, after a few decades of trying to quiet it down with therapy, "self-improvement" experimentations and life experiences. It goes on, but it's been de-fanged, neutered, softened and figuratively bound with various enchantments. I guess something I did must have worked.

My negative self talk is slowly getting better. I have been trying NLP

A lot of times I think as well as tell myself in a soft tone "I want to die"a lot of it involves my echolalia though.

I've been trying to stop telling myself I'm ugly/fat/stupid etc. It sometimes works.

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