I'm just like not feeling great. I actually think it's because of negative thoughts. I don't know why I get negative thoughts and feelings. I try not to indulge them. It's a compulsion though. Also I just think I've changed. I'm stuck even though I feel that change. For me it's become unnatural to be myself. No matter what I feel that way. But that's all a part of a bigger thing. Like later on that's just something in the past. Like I rotate in and out of feelings and stages. Yet I always feel like they last an eternity.
I'm just stuck in this. It makes it hard because it's causing it to be hard to interact with people. Also it's just causing me to feel overwhelmed. I'm getting overwhelmed by constant ideas. I'm always not sure of myself. I dislike looking in the mirror. I'm
also pretty sure this is also part of another idea I get. Like I have no idea how to explain this. But like I think I've definitely changed.
19 Mar 2023, 7:28 pm
