I'll sometimes just get very insecure. It's like a feeling of shame. I know I shouldn't feel that way and I don't want to. It just washes over me sometimes. Sometimes I get it just from looking at photos of a waiting room or anything that reminds me of my experiences. I've been in a lot of waiting rooms. It always made me feel like I was a problem. People always just want to focus on whats wrong. I don't like that..im a person with my own personality..
Yet I'm just being told things are wrong about me a lot. I can't hold a pencil correctly, I can't do this or that. It always makes me feel a bit upset. People treat me like I'm damaged. I don't feel that way until people act like it..I don't like Drs appointments, I didn't like school, I don't like any medical setting, I don't like groups where I feel noticeably different. Im supposed to have a psychiatric evaluation and I'm dreading it. I just wish I could have more of a focus on what I'm doing well or who I am as an individual.
Today, 11:58 am
