_________________ Yet in my new wildness and freedom I almost welcome the bitterness of alienage. For although nepenthe has calmed me, I know always that I am an outsider; a stranger in this century and among those who are still men. -H. P. Lovecraft, "The Outsider"
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22 Feb 2023, 11:22 pm
I love Jewel
You took your coat off, stood in the rain You're always crazy like that And I watched from my window Always felt I was outside looking in on you
You're always the mysterious one with Dark eyes and careless hair You were fashionably sensitive But too cool to care You stood in my doorway, with nothing to say Besides some comment on the weather
In case you failed to notice, in case you failed to see This is my heart bleeding before you, this is me down on my knees These foolish games are tearing me apart And your thoughtless words are breaking my heart You're breaking my heart
You're always brilliant in the morning Smoking your cigarettes and talking over coffee Your philosophies on art, Baroque moved you You loved Mozart and you'd speak of your loved ones As I clumsily strummed my guitar You'd teach me of honest things Things that were daring, things that were clean Things that knew what an honest dollar did mean
I hid my soiled hands behind my back Somewhere along the line, I must've gone off track with you Excuse me, think I've mistaken you for somebody else
Somebody who gave a damn, somebody more like myself These foolish games are tearing me You're tearing me, you're tearing me apart And your thoughtless words are breaking my heart You're breaking my heart You took your coat off, stood in the rain You're always crazy like that
_________________ In the shadows of darkness I stand in the light.
A groan of tedium escapes me, startling the fearful Is this a test? It has to be Otherwise I can't go on Draining patience, drain vitality This paranoid, paralyzed vampire act's a little old
But I'm still right here, giving blood, keeping faith And I'm still right here But I'm still here, giving blood, keeping faith And I'm still right here
Wait it out Gonna wait it out Be patient
If there were no rewards to reap No loving embrace to see me through This tedious path I've chosen here I certainly would've walked away by now
Gonna wait it out
If there were no desire to heal The damaged and broken met along This tedious path I've chosen here I certainly would've walked away by now
And I still may I still may Be patient Be patient Be patient
I must keep reminding myself of this I must keep reminding myself of this I must keep reminding myself of this I must keep reminding myself of this
If there were no rewards to reap (I must keep reminding myself of this) No loving embrace to see me through (I must keep reminding myself of this) This tedious path I've chosen here (I must keep reminding myself of this) I certainly would've walked away by now (I must keep reminding myself of this)
And I still may And I still may And I still may And I'm gonna wait it out Gonna wait it out Wait it out Gonna wait it out
_________________ Yet in my new wildness and freedom I almost welcome the bitterness of alienage. For although nepenthe has calmed me, I know always that I am an outsider; a stranger in this century and among those who are still men. -H. P. Lovecraft, "The Outsider"