Autism and love

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Waar in Nederland woon je?

Rhenen In Utrecht. Mag ik dan ook weten waar jij woont

Zin om een keer te kletsen via mail? Je lijkt me een aardig persoon

Sorry for the foreign language people. She asked me where I lived in Dutch.

I think the question of whether someone is "good enough to be loved" is either trivial or impossible to answer and, therefore, useless. It's rather like asking whether a thing is worth a certain price. When someone pays that price for that thing you know the answer is yes. Until then you cannot know the answer with certainty (though over time you can say it's more and more likely the answer is "no"). Same here. It's just not possible to give a yes or no answer based on one's height, job, living arrangements, etc. There are people who have nothing going for them "on paper" and yet have a partner who seems to love them and there are people who tick all the boxes, but have never had a partner. I don't know exactly why, but just ticking the boxes is neither sufficient nor necessary - that much is clear to me.

But perhaps I'm taking the question a bit literally. If it was more of a rant than a question then I hear you. I was going to post something a bit like that myself a week ago, but thought better of it.

I have tried asking an animal shelter in the neighborhood if I can help out but I need to have a diploma and after the that follow a few courses. It's ridiculous! They just don't let me care for an animal at all. Really strange. The only thing I do is getting donations for charity be sending messages to high profile people. Most ignore me but I never give up.

I know that I deserve love just as much as the next person now. I was down when I wrote the first post and really felt like I was not good enough.

What I want really bad (I think everyone) is to find my soulmate. A person to share my live with. A person who accepts me for who I am and even loves me for who I am with all my faults and quirks.This of course goes both ways. Sleeping next to each other and waking up next to her and brushing my hand against her face and then see those eyes open and react with a smile because she just likes me. Watching movies together and crying over a sad movie, following TV shows together and discussing them. Enjoying animals together. Sitting next to each other on the couch and me brushing my fingers through her hair. A girl that I can protect from harm and make happy. Always supporting her with her problems and always standing behind her when she needs me to and in front as protection. This to me is total happiness.

Edit: For the people who want to see my face, I uploaded a new picture to my Google+ account. Link is in my signature.