Your real underlying issues.

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I went on my own.
It's not for the benefit of a relationship surviving. Its for me to learn how to deal with relationships with others and myself better.

I have a girlfriend but was pretty miserable alone. I think my underlining issue was my life circumstances that I felt were beyond my control. I felt trapped living with my parents who I never had a good relationship with because they never understood my issues & they put me down & made me feel guilty alot because they were very frustrated with the situation of having me live with them & they wanted me to be more independent than I could in that environment. My OCD & anxiety caused problems too but got better after I got on meds. Then I got the girlfriend I have now & I moved in with her & am in a very different & much better environment & am a lot happier.

-Convincing girls {in the same age range as me} to not call me "cute."

-Avoiding women old enough to be my mom.

-Being self conscious of what I say.

-Being self conscious of what I do.

-Hanging out with the "wrong types."

With some people I met, and to a limited extent also with me, anxiety and/or depression were much more significant barriers to finding a relationship than autism as I experienced it. There are certain things about e.g. stimming and not looking at people when talking to them that may be a bit off-putting, but not really wanting to go out and do stuff was a much bigger problem. I can't speak for many others here, but I've met a bunch of people on the spectrum IRL, and for some of them depression (even if not particularly severe) appeared to be a more serious obstacle.

Yes; anxiety and depression is a major struggle. I have had both since my teens; I'm on the right medications now, but if I only could control my temper better. Since I was extremely busy this weekend, I want also to wish everyone a belated happy Valentine's day (not to piss anyone off, as I'm single too and dread that day also). Besides meds, the only thing that got me out of depression was the fact that my family loved and cared about me. At least I meant something to someone...and of course, music. I cannot live without music. It is my therapy at times.

For those that are suffering, there is hope - there really is. But there is no easy treatment; like Dante, you have to go through hell to reach some sort of peace and contentment. Therapy, perhaps meds, and the most important part - not lying to yourself and face your fears and demons head on! Find out why these feelings arise or why you act a way that can be harmful to yourself or others. You have to be brave. If you don't have a purpose in life right now, make that your purpose. Take it from this cantankerous old piece of **** typing this. I've been there and have seen "hell" and came back. You will feel better about yourself, and you might end up helping another along the way.