29 Sep 2016, 3:45 am
Hello I am a 22 year old aspie female and new to the forums and i have an issue. In 2009, I fell in love for the first time. I had this heavy feeling in my eyes and felt butterflies whenever i was with him. Sadly in 2010,I lost him to the big house which shattered my heart into a million tiny pieces. Between Early 2011-late 2014, I frequented a dating site called meet me. I noticed a cycle I was stuck in that basically would go like this, Id meet a guy and send hi a message. we'd chat online for awhile and id catch mild feelings however in the midist a better guy would come along and id drop the original guy and move to the next. More than once my parents caught me on the sites and pulled a pedo card on some of the guys i talked too even though they seemed genuine and most of the time id have feelings for one of them that would have to quickly fade. in early 2014, I had a secret relationship with a man who was going through a divorce. Again, my mom found out and put a stop to it and i had super strong feelings for him. I,m now almost 22 years old and in a relationship with an amazing guy. What worries me is my feelings dont feel like the same feelings i had for my secret relationship,first love,and online flings. I,m scared that my emotions could be overly damaged. Im also afraid of losing my boyfriend due to my emotions incapibility to catch up. Are my emotions too damaged or could it be something in the subconsious to blame. 
29 Sep 2016, 6:25 am
