Lockdown Loneliness

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So... er, hi. Long time occasional lurker, first time poster, I guess.

Having a fun week this week, lockdowns (in addition to typical circumstance) have caused me a baseline level of mental imprisonment much as I'm sure many others are feeling, but for a few days I've slipped back into a state that I've experienced before, occasionally. It's finally clicked what it feels like so I thought I'd ask if anybody else knows what I mean.

Essentially it's like having a sickening crush on someone, except there's no-one, not an "I wish I was with her" or a still burning flame for a past relationship, just a debilitating sense of having an intense teenage crush on... nobody.

It's really quite frustrating, both because of lockdowns (even if there were somebody) and because there's nobody to even express it to so it could be resolved into a relationship or a rejection.

It's doing my head in, figured posting about it might help, but as I say I'm curious whether anybody else can identify with the description I've given as well.

We've never had any lockdowns, but everybody are encouraged to work from home if possible, so I haven't been out and around since christmas.
It makes me eager for communication, I find that I email people a lot, perhaps being a bit "too much" sometimes.
Not sure if that answers anything or provides any info, but well.

/Mats