Describe your social life.

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Throughout my years in school I never saw classmates outside of school or school related events.

I had never been to a classmates house until college when I was a part of a group project...I started having anxiety that I had never felt before, I was panicking, I had to get out of there as soon as possible.

I have facebook but no one talks to me...I have accepted being friendless, I am not bitter or depressed over it anymore. I have accepted that I am a outcast no one likes.

I love my family(parents...siblings...etc) and they are all I need when it comes to real life(outside of the internet) relationships.

I haven't spoken to anyone other than my parents and checkout staff in nearly two weeks. Recently had a severe breakdown in a different country that forced me to come back home. This was caused in part by the stress of social interaction which pushed me back into the drinking problem I've had for the last decade.

At this point, I have no real desire to socialise with anyone. If I was able to just sit in my bedroom and keep myself occupied with my interests, I would be happy enough to not interact socially for a long time. There's a part of me that feels guilty about this but I feel so miserable and exhausted in my most of my social interactions that it's hard for me to see the point.

The reality is that I'm 26 and I'm yet to meet one person who I would consider an indispensable person in my life. Maybe I expect too much for people or I'm just unlucky but I can't think of anyone who I couldn't manage without seeing again. Hopefully this will change in the future as this isn't the way I want to spend the rest of my life that's for sure.

I have 4 dogs and the lady at the bagel shop who I see every morning when I place my order. I taught my dogs non-verbal communication so I don't have to use my voice with them.

saying cheers to the supermarket cashier as i bag up and go.