I have ten friends. Six of my friends are my close friends and the rest five of my friends are just ordinary friends. But I stopped making friends at age fourteen. I made like seven friends in all of my life at secondary school, but I lose three of my friends because I lost interest in them. Also in all my life primary school, I've made six friends, but I lose three of my friends till secondary school because I lost interest in them
Now when I entered college in September 2013, I made zero friends up till now May 21 2014, I still can't make friends because maybe I don't feel connection with them. I don't feel like I fit in with them. This is how I grew hatred for myself. They were all nice to me, some did approached to me, but I just couldn't do it, is it because I'm nervous? But I've been around with these students for 8 months now.
I'm also hard of hearing and I did go to deaf primary school and secondary school, most of my friends are deaf, and one of my friend is hearing. Is this because I'm not adapted in hearing environment? But I went to mainstream in some lesson, which means I did have experience with hearing people.
If you met me, you will most likely not know that I'm deaf or hard of hearing because my speech is fine and my hearing is fine, the only disadvantage of my hearing is I have difficulty hearing a person while there's loud background noise.
So how come I can't make friends? How come I made some friends in primary school and secondary school? and I think the reason is because my friends interest and my interest relates it. But none of the student in college I see relates to my interest, I don't really fit in with them.