Recently it seems as though I've been more social than I have ever been in my life. Like I wake up, feel very very off, and get pushed throughout my day. Like I have this feeling that I know is not normal for me because it wasn't there before. This has been going for a while now. Like I've talked a lot about things, I've been around people, basically having chit-chat and all this stuff and I know it's not me. It's never been me. I don't enjoy it, but it seems like I do it anyway. My special interest no longer brings me solace. Music and video games don't either. Being around people does nothing. Like today I was 'chatting' with my cousins and their mom and I just felt very out of place because they weren't interested (at least thats how they seemed) and I don't like talking about stupid stuff. And then I left and I felt bad for leaving because people generally criticize me for not being social and all that jazz. I just feel guilty, and more stuff that I can't explain and then I'm also like whatever and mad or something at the same time. I guess the closest thing I can relate too was when a friend sent me this comic strip of a dog in a house that was on fire and it was thinking "This is fine." just sitting there with a half-smile on his face. Is this depression or something? Has anybody else gone through something like this? Should I go get evaluated for other things? I was only diagnosed with Aspergers and to my knowledge that was all that was checked. (Glad I was diagnosed but hate that my family treats me like some kind of larvae. I'd rather they just leave me be and let me be who I want to be.)
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"Sometimes I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast."
Your neurodiverse (Aspie) score: 175 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 37 of 200
You are very likely neurodiverse (Aspie)
27 Nov 2014, 5:55 pm
