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12 Jul 2009, 8:28 am

what else could this be but asperger's
I was diagnosed with asperger's at the end of the school year this last year, but im not getting help, support, or even any degree of understanding at all. It cant be asperger's. noone will accept it, they all say im putting on a show, or just a brat. Yesterday I caused a huge fight between my dad and his girlfriend, and I dont know how I started it, or what I did
people are so confusing to me. Im coming out to socialise a bit now instead of being in my world of plants, and wild animals all of the time, but it is just making more problems for me. people walking in certain patterns drives me crazy from the sound, and my dad talking upstairs when im trying to sleap makes me mad, and my brain gets so turbulent I need to tell it to shut up, and scream at it there is something really wrong with my head. everything is just topsy turvy now. life no longer maks sense. everyone around me keeps saying its organic, but not nessicarily asperger's
I just have "traits" of autism\
do bipolar people feel like this?
am I right in the head?


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12 Jul 2009, 9:39 am

Could it be sensory overload or a sensory processing disorder? The things that other people don't even notice drive you nuts?



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12 Jul 2009, 1:46 pm

Sensory overload is a symptom of autism too though....I think the things you describe could still be Asperger's. I also piss people off without understanding why. In fact that's why I gave up communicating with my dad at all. He would constantly tell me I made him mad and I didn't mean to and had no idea what made him mad until he explained it. I am a VERY light sleeper too and find it hard to sleep with noises....then there's the things (anxieties, etc.) swirling around in my brain which makes it hard to get to sleep sometimes.

When I first started researching Asperger's, there were a few things about it I didn't think applied to me, but after doing more research and really analyzing myself (trying to see me from the outside), I did realize they did apply to me. Maybe you just need more time to process the diagnosis and try to understand it better? There could be other issues you have along with Asperger's too. It doesn't look the same in everyone.



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12 Jul 2009, 5:04 pm

All the issues you describe sure sound like AS/HFA problems to me. Sounds like your diagnosis was spot-on. As far as not getting support or understanding, I'm sorry to have to tell you this, but that's the curse of being high-functioning - you'll always seem just 'normal' enough that few people will ever take seriously the fact that you're actually having problems coping with everyday life. Instead, they act like you're being difficult on purpose ('putting on a show', as you say). It sucks. I wish I could offer you a solution, but I don't know of one. I think that's the biggest frustration we all live with.

"Oh come on, you can't blame this on Asperger's..."

Well, yeah - actually I can - a brain dysfunction affects pretty much every aspect of your life in one way or another, or several ways at once. If they don't have it, they just don't get it.



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12 Jul 2009, 5:46 pm

"do bipolar people feel like this?"

So do other people as well

"am I right in the head?"

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12 Jul 2009, 6:47 pm

but then I get days like today when I act relatively aspie, but dont feel like I need to to feel ok. I took my coat off in public, and had convorsations with people

isnt asperger's supposed to be consistant?


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12 Jul 2009, 6:58 pm

The underlying AS usually stays constant or else changes with natural development. (Some children gain enough skills as they develop that they "lose" their diagnosis because they are no longer impaired by their autistic traits. It usually happens before puberty. A few have had "regression", that is loss of skills, after the toddler years, usually due to additional problems like epilepsy and other brain problem, physical illness, or a mental illness. Asperger's usually does not involve regressions, but it occasionally does.)

The changes you are most likely to see are not permanent but stress-related. Autism, in any of its varied expressions, is usually stress-responsive. Under extreme stress, someone with AS may look very much like someone with low-functioning autism. Under no stress, in a comfortable environment, he can be indistinguishable from typical. I know, because that's the way I am. I have to be careful to avoid overload for that reason.

Long-term stress, as it can with anyone, can result in mental illness and even physical problems. Both would make Asperger's more of a disability than it usually is.

Many people are better at socializing at some times than others. It's just that when your social skills are so rudimentary to begin with, it's a lot more apparent.

If you are under significant sensory-related stress, I wouldn't be surprised that you are having a harder time. The logical route would be to find a way to deal with the unwanted sensory input, muffle it somehow so that less of it gets to you, which should lower your stress level a little.


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12 Jul 2009, 7:00 pm

Here's an article that addresses some of this...

"Help! I seem to be getting more autistic!"


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12 Jul 2009, 7:05 pm

Thank you Very Much for that link

Lots of good stuff

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I really needed that in a bad way



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12 Jul 2009, 7:43 pm

thank you for the link. I think im on to something, I always thought I was almost HFA as opposed to AS, and a lot of triggers could be causing the way I am recently, I think it is burning out
or that my new friend is autistic too


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12 Jul 2009, 7:56 pm

dillan wrote:
but then I get days like today when I act relatively aspie, but dont feel like I need to to feel ok. I took my coat off in public, and had convorsations with people

isnt asperger's supposed to be consistant?

I can have days where I seem worse and days where my symptoms don't bother me at all. Like today noise isn't bothering me much, but yesterday and the day before it was.


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12 Jul 2009, 8:01 pm

You may be able to get the Sensory Processing Disorder addressed separately from the AS/HFA. Perhaps if you approach the right people at your school with a specific problem... difficulty with bright lights, sensitivity to noise, etc. they will be able to offer some helpful suggestions and support.

Because you are high-functioning, you may be able to take advantage of services offered to all students... help with study organization, time management for example. But it will help if you can go to them with a specific problem... eg. I am having difficulty getting my homework done. I think I could use some help organizing myself to study.

I'm Dx AS, but I have little to no SPD. I'm just completely, totally and thoroughly socially clueless. I approach social situations intellectually rather than instinctively/intuitively.

I don't know how old you are, but if you are approaching adolescence, then hormones are going to make things more intense and erratic.

And just because you're AS/HFA, it doesn't mean you don't like to socialize... it just means you're missing half the conversation, the body language half.



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14 Jul 2009, 6:52 pm

well, you are right, body language is hard, but the main problem now at school is trust issues, because I cannot read people well, and they seem to always betray me, like my teacher used to help me, and I asked her about my problems, and she said thats autism honey, and the next week, she was at a manifestation hearing because I accidently broke a teachers rib :( long story, and I was really confused that day... she said not only was I not even asperger's, but I was doing things to be malicios


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15 Jul 2009, 7:32 am

dillan wrote:
well, you are right, body language is hard, but the main problem now at school is trust issues, because I cannot read people well, and they seem to always betray me, like my teacher used to help me, and I asked her about my problems, and she said thats autism honey, and the next week, she was at a manifestation hearing because I accidently broke a teachers rib :( long story, and I was really confused that day... she said not only was I not even asperger's, but I was doing things to be malicios


I think we'd better hear the story, dillan. It might help us make better suggestions. It sounds like some pretty heavy things are developing... :(

How old are you?