Negative social behaviors from attempting to be normal?

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Here's my take on the whole thing. I think that deep down inside, NTs would like to talk about intellectual things, but because the "society" says you're not supposed to do it, they suppress it, and talk about socially acceptable things instead. Basically, they edit themselves so much that very little of their true self comes out. We aspies, on the other hand, due to our social blindness, don't edit ourselves when we speak, so we end up talking about intellectual things. But because the "society" looks down upon it, we get crap for doing it. (Why is "society" written in quotes? The joke below should explain it.)

I came up with a joke about this. It was originally a blonde joke, but I changed the words and the content to make it about NTs.

I've tried many things in social situations. I know I'm not good at initiating a conversation so
I leave it to someone else, then make the obligatory sounds mmmmm, yeah! not really!... etc.
but there is just so much of this sort of thing I can pit up with.
If a really interesting topic is brought up in conversation I tend to go too deeply into it when all the others are content with superficial or flippant remarks. Saying something that displays that you take the topic seriously is usually met with silence or people exchanging knowing looks. Then I become very embarrased and shut up and then feel conspicuous by mu "shutting up" and this compounds my awardness.
When others are happy to argue heatedly about differing points of view I become agitated by their " aggression" and find the situation so "hostile" that my mind shutsdown. Occasionaly I have tried to explain my position to someone who has reacted aggressively and, as they usually have no clue about where my standpoint is coming from, I usually make matters worse .
My partner has told me I should "quit while I'm ahead" I still have no idea what he means. I interpret it as never continue if others display a different opinion...ie. shut up.
SOOOOO.... now I not only find social situations boring but also extremely frustrating.
No amount of rehearsing, or being an observer making "obilgatory " sounds can make me feel that socialising is worth the mental torment and frustration.
DECISION: Since coming to terms with Aspergers I have come to understand it is a futile exercise to try to engage in social situation.... keep it to the minimum. I only relate "socially" to others in an "interest" group .... not so much socially but attend "Discussions" on a particular interest. MUCH EASIER and more REWARDING.


There is still the possibility of letting things slip out that contravene "sociatel norms".... as I did recently. Sort of like "dropping a bomb shell".... only to me it was revealing the truth of my position on the "topic". Yep! they'll think I'm weird.... so what! I know that they value my contributions to the discussionson the whole.... so being viewed a bit weird is OK.