Feeling as if born the wrong species

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I bet you could still pull off the swan dress.

OK, this is wild. I keep seeing the word "spark" all over the place on WP. I came up with that term for myself independently of anyone else. IS this a term of great (ASD) minds think alike or something?

This is about how I feel. I've never felt human, but I don't really see myself as anything else organic, either. I'm really robotic. Everything I say and do when I'm around people is so contrived, like I'm running "NT Program 1" or "You ARE Neurotypical, Damn It! 2.0"

Also, something about my CPU being a neuronet processor, a learning computer

Hmmm. I also came up with Spark independently. Even before I found WP.

You must be right, great ASD minds think alike.

This is fascinating! As a child I thought I was a cat from a planet of sentient cat beings, reincarnated as a human as an "experiment." We had our own language and history and everything, which I chattered about to anyone who would listen.

I thought for certain that I would die soon (before growing up) and turn back into a cat and go back home, and waited years for that to happen... Still here though lol

I have always considered myself more of a cat, perhaps a cat/human hybrid but not really human. I understand normal animals much more and find myself more at ease.

-blush- I have always mewed and purred, that's how I like it (and how my partner does too)

That's profound for a kid. At what did you come up with this?

I was nearly eight. And I still have the notebooks filled with "religious" "legal" and "historical" documents on our "planet" that I carefully wrote out in the pig-latin-esque "cat language." It was a huge part of my life; made me happy whenever I felt ostracized. Good memories! Meow

Did you have a name for the species?

No, it was pretty basic: we were "cats" (lol @"we" - it was only me! hehe) Gee I hope none of this qualifies as psychosis - I was just an imaginative kid looking for meaning

BTW - did you ever think you were a wolf?

I definitely identify more with cats than humans.

I too as a child tried to be a cat (and felt I secretly was one); walking along the floor with the other cats in the house, mimicing their meows and calls, aping their body language.

Interestingly enough, author Edith Wharton also strongly identified with cats and wrote she felt more like one of them than a typical human.

I used to feel like I was really from a more intelligent and advanced extraterrestrial civilization.

I've never really felt human. I have felt that I should most likely belong to a different species. Cats, of course.

This too. If not a robot, then this. I'm always asking myself things like "Why do humans _____"

Things like
A: Chit chat
B: Kiss with tongues (iccccckkkkk!)
C: Work 40 hours a week
D: Whatever it is that humans do

When I was younger, I would imitate a lot of the behaviors of cats. I would purr, yowl, hiss and meow. I loved tucking a string into the back of my pants for a 'tail' (I felt 'incomplete' without one) and whenever I crawled on all fours, I would curl my fingers under to make them look like paws. I identified much more with cats then I did with humans.

To this day, I still feel much the same way. Not so much with cats as I did when I was younger, now it is mostly with wolves. I love the idea of werewolves, that you could change into a wolf and 'escape' being human for a while.

I feel that I should have been born a dog, or a rat.