Did you use to think you'd grow out of AS one day?
MONKEY
Veteran
Joined: 3 Jan 2009
Age: 31
Gender: Female
Posts: 9,896
Location: Stoke, England (sometimes :P)
I have been able after years of trial and error to find people that are on my wavelength, and now I've found them I know where to look this time if I need friends. It turns out I get on really well with aspies (or atleast a very nerdy person) surprise surprise, and I tend to make friends with them. I am at my happiest with that set of people I find.
_________________
What film do atheists watch on Christmas?
Coincidence on 34th street.
I never saw much of a point in trying to conform and being something you're not. I just wanted the other kids to leave me alone. When I was diagnosed back in 2007, it was a shock, but after doing research, it made my life finally make sense. I even remember saying to myself, "It all makes sense now.", and I wouldn't change that part of me for the world.
The worst years of my life were from age 17-24 when i was basically "forced" into going out and socialising as thats what girls my age were meant to do. I hated it with a passion, esp nightclubbing,,It was hell on earth for me and I couldnt understand how anyone could actually enjoy doing these things. At one stage i thought well maybe if I just keep doing it over and over I'll get use to it and it won't be so bad, well that never happened. It just got worse.
Honestly it took me years and years to figure out who i was as to survive I had to take on the persona of a different person just to fit in. All I wanted was to not be weird and to be normal and just like everybody else but in the end it almost destroyed me trying to do that.
sinsboldly
Veteran
Joined: 21 Nov 2006
Gender: Female
Posts: 13,488
Location: Bandon-by-the-Sea, Oregon
no.
i never perceived myself to be in a way that was not appropriate to the way i see the world.
i do not feel "displaced" from some truer existence of myself.
i know that others are different to me, and i am different to others, but i do not feel like i am "out of sorts", because i behave appropriately to the way i sense reality.
i can not run as fast as a horse. i do not feel slow and ungainly because of that. i am not a horse and will never become a horse and i do not feel "displaced" because i am not a horse.
i am me and that is all i will ever be and that is all i ever was.
certainly quite the poet, good sir
sorry i do not understand. did some of what i said rhyme? i can not see where it rhymed.
thanks for saying i am a "good sir"
one need not rhyme to be poetic, b9! I think TheDoctor82 was commenting on your turns of phrase that are indeed, poetic. Another way to say it: you present excellent imagery in your writing.
Merle
_________________
Alis volat propriis
State Motto of Oregon