Back when I was still trying really hard to fit in, I went to a few large college parties where I only knew 1-3 people (all of which left me all alone every single time). I ended up being so uncomfortable that I drank myself stupid, one time to the point where I was having blackouts and threw up on the sidewalk. That's when I decided to stop trying and also to stop drinking (because clearly I don't know my limits). Other than that, the only parties I've been to were back when I had a big group of friends one summer and we had a few parties of about 10 people but they were all people I knew and it was really fun until everyone got drunk and stupid. Also a few months ago my one remaining friend invited me to his work party and I forced myself to go but it was very, very boring and awkward for me. So no more parties for me in the near future, I just don't find them enjoyable.
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My dream is to one day know what my dream is.
~Michael Novotny