Are you living or just merely existing and surviving?

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I definitely feel I'm existing.
Nothing to look forward to at all, going through life one day at a time, waiting for each to end.

yup.
taking life one day at a time, just like the drunks do!

If it was not for my family I would be out in the street homeless or in a federal prison for robbing a bank with a fake gun in hopes of getting Federal prison time to keep from having to eat garbage or fight someone in homeless shelter over my shoes. Even with jobs I never made enough to be self sufficient (22 years of low paying jobs) I am barely survivng,

I am simply existing. I believe that life begins after earthly death. I just want to get through my days and be done with them. Thats why it doesnt bother me not having a day off every week, i have nothing better to do, might as well work.

That being said, i do enjoy my own activites, i hope to take a two day trip this summer (if i ever get two days off in a row), but i do not get upset if i cant. I do get annoyed when i have errands to run on my day off and i get called in to work, and when i ask said co-worker if he will take one of my shifts he says "no way, i have stuff to get done" and im thinking, yeah so do i, but you had better things to do than show up for work.

I think just about everything in life is trivial, when im on my death bed, will it really matter if i got to the post office that day 60 years ago?

im a "do it and get it over with" type of person.

I feel like I'm currently walking the fine line between the two ('living' and 'existing'), though I do not have any severe sensory issues to deal with...

Currently, I enjoy going to the park every morning and be among the water fowl... ducks, rails, swans; to me, it's an energizing experience that pulls my attention away from the hectic human world and opens my eyes to a different, more pleasant manifestation of 'life'.

I am starting to enjoy my hobbies again after an extended period of depression and apathy, so I am happy about that. I can also identify with the things PlatedDrake said: I'm very much aware of the constant change that's inherent to life, but that was something I took a long time learning. I'm very glad to say that I finally "live in the now" these days. But I also have that fear of failure Drake mentioned, and I have indeed been dissuaded from pursuing goals in the past because I figured others would be far, far better than I, and perhaps I would be unable to defeat.

But to sum it up, currently I feel very much alive, even if my life isn't that interesting or spectacular.

I feel the same as Ponies but probably couldnt have put it so well. The only thing I would add is that I sometimes get a crush on someone but have stopped torturing myself by imagining us being togehter and leading a semi-nomral life. I just know it wouldn't work out. There's a lot you learn to accept over time.

I pretty much sit on the fence between living and merely existing. I have a job, my own place, a group of friends to hang out with, a car, and access to escort services (for when... you know). But at the same time, I don't feel like this world has anything that would give my life that "oh wow" feeling. It's no different than a class lecture on a subject I'm only slightly interested in. The average life expectancy feels very long, and I can't help but feel mildly worried about how I'm going get through all those years I still have left. I'm not suicidal by any means, but I don't feel desire to live to be 100, either. I agree with the statement "maybe this world is another planet's hell" (quote of Aldous Huxley, author of Brave New World), and feel that my life's goal is to reduce its unpleasantness the best I can.

This concerns me too.

I have "longevity" genes in my family, where the typical age of death is in the 90s.

I'm not sure I can maintain my sanity being alone for all these coming years, I am completely terrified of living to be 100 and being alone for the rest of my life.

I'm a 20 year old female. With no feelings, according to my so-called friends. So I just exist. I'm there for them to use, be nasty to, take their anger out on, and drop. If I stop being in their life, I will have no one.

Choices

People can make:

a) Good choices
b) Neutral choices
c) Poor choices

I have had anxiety too for many years and had terrible side effects to that horrible poison they give people for it (anti anxiety anti depressants ) but With the help of my dr I discovered it was fixable. Anxiety is your bodies way of telling us somthing is wrong with what you're putting in it. After I quit eating anything with MSG , sodium benzoate, aspartame and any other preservative my anxiety is literally 95% better.
I also had a reaction to eggs that caused panic attacks. That is a common food allergy symptom. So is anything related to mold like fermented stuff.
Sadly the drug companies make billions off of Prozac and the like so they don't put a big emphasis on advertising this cure and even give dr.s kickbacks for giving it out.

Try changing your diet, doing a food allergy test, but keep in mind the blood test for allergies is not great. But it's a start. Interdermal is good. Back scratch test is old outdated test. Food tolerance test is the only real way. Strip your food back at first to simple stuff you know is ok until you feel better then add foods in gradually paying attention to you symptoms. I've been obsessively researching, for 10 years, the effects of preservatives and food allergies on people and it's a really bad thing especially for autistiscs.

Hope you feel better soon!