How do you feel after having a meltdown?

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I'm just curious because after mine, when I actually do have them, I feel worse because I know people around me see it. It makes me feel really embarrassed sometimes. I often can't control them and they happen without any warning. I always fear them in general and yet at the same time I can't control them so I'm not embarrassed. I was curious of you guys ever feel worse after them because of the sudden embarrassment or fear of what people who are think of you.

The worse the meltdown is, the more embarassed I feel afterwards. It's gotten to a point where I can be somewhat aware of this while the meltdown is actually happening; generally, I can exercise a small amount of self-control over my behavior so that I won't do certain things in the heat of the moment that I'll cringe about later. But this only works sometimes. Obviously, I have my limits.

Sad and feeling maybe my family will love me less, even though I know they know I try to remain level.

I feel tired and exhausted, and I just want to sleep.

I feel tired, and very embarrassed, especially if it was in public and around perfect strangers.

I feel like drunk and I go to bed.

tired and embarrassed depending where I had the meltdown, sometimes I am angry at the people involved

Tired and empty.

I usually don't remember mine like. I remember what happened before and after but its almost like having a seizure. I forget what I did or sometimes might have sound during the meltdown period and then sometimes I feel confused. Other times I feel weak and as if my body just drained itself. I just want to sit down and lay their wallowing in the pain still left after the meltdown occured too. Sometimes after, it becomes a depressive state where I feel like nothing can satisfy me or please me and I sit there panicking because not only am I depressed but often times I still feel upset and my mind is having a meltdown after my nervous system kicked in and reacted with the outburst form of it.

I'm usually zoned out. If you saw me after a meltdown, you'd probably see someone moving very little and staring fixedly at one point; you might mistake me for being catatonic, but I'm not, I just don't have any energy left. I may simply go to sleep, depending on the environment.

For some reason I can't have meltdowns in public even if I really want to. At home, after a meltdown I just want to go to a quiet room and think angrily about my thoughts, sometimes that calms me down.

I fill a little ill. Sometimes a headache. Less concerned now about how others think than I used to be.