I choose Envy.
I get jealous, very easily. I especially feel jealous towards NTs. I get jealous when I hear about how they got their Driver's Licence at the Magic Age of 16. I feel jealous when I hear about somebody moving out, at the age of 21, after they've finnished College or University. I was jealous of my Younger Sister, when she moved out, five years ago. She was 24 at the time, and I was 27. The only difference was that she actually had somebody that she could board with. I'm normal enough to be living on my own. When The Cockney Spirit gets the better of me, than I can go to Stepping Stones and talk to the Members, there. I used to be jealous of the Skinny Girls that I would see around my Area. The ones who wear tight clothing and talk a mile a minute, as though they're having a Verbal Competition. Than I've decided that it's better to be at my Healthy Weight of between 155 and 170 Lbs. I've also decided that my Nasal, slightly drawn-out, somewhat Mannish Cockney Accent gives me more character, than those Skinny Girls will ever have. Every time that I hear that an NT who's in their Late Teens has a Car, or a Lover or is living in a Dorm, on their own and I've watched them grow up, I feel very jealous, on the inside. When I hear the news that somebody at my Club House has gotten a Job, I tell them that I'm happy for them. The honest truth is that I feel a little jealous. If the person appears to be Slightly Mentally Challenged, the feelings are slightly more pronounced. That's because I know that like London and her former Routemaster, I'm too edgy to be able to deal with Authority Figures, and that could be very costly, if I was on a Job Site. I was even going to order a 1:24 Model of one of those Buses, because I was jealous that my Sister will be getting Married, and I was feeling sorry for myself. I'm over that, now.
05 Jun 2006, 5:12 am
