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Some... Strangeness.
Not me. Or from me specifically.
But what's been coming to me.
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It's no big deal, but I have been thinking about the Nintendo Direct that will air tomorrow. Not only am I anxious about what the final two Smash fighters will be, but I am eager about what new information about the Pokemon games will be (e.g. will there be new content in Pokemon Brilliant Diamond and Shining Pearl?) While the suspense is killing me, I will have to keep myself busy until then.
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OK, so I watched the direct, and it was "meh" at most in my opinion. There were no Pokemon-related news as of yet, and Kazuya from Tekken is the fifth Smash DLC character. I am okay with the latter because my brother used to play Tekken a lot as a kid. I honestly could never be that good in that game as he was; it's just not exactly my cup of tea.
What made me perk up was Mario Party Superstars. It looked promising with great graphics in mini games from some of the older games, and Birdo is back as a playable character. It's supposed to release the week after my birthday, so I may get that.
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I wrote some stuff down for my therapist tomorrow. If he reads it and still tries to invalidate/dismiss/lessen-in-any-way stuff, I’m done. And I won’t bother trying to find someone else who might possibly take me seriously if somebody who’s known me for over a decade and who works with a lot of clients with ASD can’t do it. I might consider if I hadn’t already tried probably everything they might offer anyway (through other therapists and/or inpatient/intensive-outpatient hospitalization) with no success, but, well, I have. No point trying to put myself through probably multiple failed attempts to find someone who isn’t dismissive because if I’m capable of something sometimes, I obviously am all the time, and obviously I’m severely exaggerating when I say I really have tried pretty much everything and/or just go into new things already certain they’ll fail and don’t give them a good, honest, open-minded try
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Yet in my new wildness and freedom I almost welcome the bitterness of alienage. For although nepenthe has calmed me, I know always that I am an outsider; a stranger in this century and among those who are still men.
-H. P. Lovecraft, "The Outsider"
I'm nostalgic for my grandfather who committed suicide on my 16th birthday. I wish I could go back in time and bond with him more. He suffered from debilitating depression and he was likely autistic. I understand his personality now that I'm an adult and there's so much I'd like to ask, especially about the eight years when he abandoned us during my childhood. I wish I hadn't been a sullen, bitter 13 year-old when he came back to the family. He probably thinks I hated him. I wish I could tell him how much I love him, and how proud I am of all that he accomplished.
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And in the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make.
I’m sorry that happened. Don’t be too hard on yourself for what you did as a young child. I’ve been there.. in a similar position with a loved one who passed, and as a kid you just don’t understand. Even if you could go back in time, you’d more than likely still make some mistake unless you knew what you knew now, then. It is inevitable for kids to make mistakes and to not understand deeply how serious some things are. I am sure he knew that, as he was a kid himself.
Thank you. I was angry because he walked out on my whole family including my grandmother. He went into hiding to be alone because of social anxiety and major depression. No one explained where he went and I assumed he had died. He came back eight years later, after my grandmother had died from stress. The remaining family was furious so I decided I would never forgive him. He took his life three years later, on my birthday. I wish so much that ASD was better understood and that he had received mental health support instead of feeling ostracised. Same for my grandmother, really. They shouldn't have been a couple in the first place, but she got pregnant on their first date.
The stories I could tell.
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And in the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make.
Thank you. I was angry because he walked out on my whole family including my grandmother. He went into hiding to be alone because of social anxiety and major depression. No one explained where he went and I assumed he had died. He came back eight years later, after my grandmother had died from stress. The remaining family was furious so I decided I would never forgive him. He took his life three years later, on my birthday. I wish so much that ASD was better understood and that he had received mental health support instead of feeling ostracised. Same for my grandmother, really. They shouldn't have been a couple in the first place, but she got pregnant on their first date.
The stories I could tell.
I know that must be hard to not think about on what’s supposed to be a happy day. I’d also be interested in hearing more stories. I have some interesting stories about my family as well.
I wonder if there's a way we could start a thread of family folklore, without breaching anyone's privacy.
I think it would be therapeutic for some of us to honour the good and the bad of our lives.
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And in the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make.
I started doing that. Then suddenly... no appts
I wonder if there's a way we could start a thread of family folklore, without breaching anyone's privacy.
I think it would be therapeutic for some of us to honour the good and the bad of our lives.
Interesting