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JHenry2848
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10 Apr 2011, 11:27 pm

This is the way that I describe myself to most people. I went to a highschool with mabye 14 hundered people and atleast out of my graduating class i was the only one like me. Completely and totally unique to the point that its weired. Perhaps im overreacting a bit but I felt alone all the time. I went home from school and watched tv sitcoms all night. My twin brother also had socialising issues, but he's not crazy like me. Im insane. And its sad to think how long its going to take until I meet another person like me and if or when I do will that person help me feel like less of a freak.



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11 Apr 2011, 4:14 am

Yeah I know how u feel. For 1, being aspie already makes me 1 in roughly several hundred. For an aspie...Im different. I have yet to meet someone like me and I throw people off so often. Being unique can seriously makes me feel like a freak at times. I work so hard to fit in and its so hard. My personality is made up of a billion things that dont go together... :cry:



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13 Apr 2011, 8:00 am

You're way off target with the 1 in a thousand approach
It's more like 1 in a hundred!
Even one of the disability officers I talk to says that's a massive over assessment
He says it's more like one in ten!
he says he sees us everywhere!
We're like an avalanche of social misfits and now society is finally recognising us it can't handle the load.

Don't think you are insane!
You have 'Different Think'
(That's what we call it here)
Of course you are special!
Of course you are unique!
(You too Ai_Ling!)
But that doesn't make you a freak!

JHenry2848 wrote:
I went home from school and watched tv sitcoms all night.

Of course! That's what I did all the way through school.
What else are you supposed to do when you come home with a massive sensory overload?
All those thoughts and feelings and input and learning and observations and misunderstandings and conceptions and broken misconceptions and failings and yearnings ...
It's hard.
It's really hard.


...It's not really a matter of making friends or finding someone else to help you feel accepted...
Accept your self.
And then you will find yourself helping someone else feel like less of a freak,
and That,
my friend,
is where the Magic Is!


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14 Apr 2011, 4:34 am

Ai_Ling wrote:
Yeah I know how u feel. For 1, being aspie already makes me 1 in roughly several hundred. For an aspie...Im different. I have yet to meet someone like me and I throw people off so often. Being unique can seriously makes me feel like a freak at times. I work so hard to fit in and its so hard. My personality is made up of a billion things that dont go together... :cry:


This...except from the last part....I haven't met anyone with my condition in my area as of yet.



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06 Jun 2011, 7:07 am

I don't buy that "accept yourself" stuff. Socializing with other people helps ease the stress of the day and if you dont fit in you have to find unnatural ways of doing that, such as substance abuse, which is a problem but if you're a freak like me, what isn't a problem?



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06 Jun 2011, 8:49 am

I know I'm one in seven billion.


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06 Jun 2011, 11:31 pm

You are the chosen one, Neo.



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07 Jun 2011, 11:26 pm

JHenry2848 wrote:
This is the way that I describe myself to most people. I went to a highschool with mabye 14 hundered people and atleast out of my graduating class i was the only one like me. Completely and totally unique to the point that its weired. Perhaps im overreacting a bit but I felt alone all the time. I went home from school and watched tv sitcoms all night. My twin brother also had socialising issues, but he's not crazy like me. Im insane. And its sad to think how long its going to take until I meet another person like me and if or when I do will that person help me feel like less of a freak.


Yeah that sounds like my social life in highschool.....go to school, go home, go in my room and occasionaly come out for food. I also tend to feel alone even around people, due to my own messed up state of mind. I don't really have any good advice I mean I cannot seem to convince myself things will improve for me and odds to seem to be in favor of things getting worse. But I kind of know what that feels like.



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08 Jun 2011, 1:53 am

Xuntasi wrote:
You are the chosen one, Neo.


Neo... I am your father, my power limit is OVER NINE THOUSAND.

Why do we fall? because of gravity, could be. Because we are not looking at where we are going, could be. Because someone tripped us, could be. Whatever reason, falling is falling, and everybody does, so it doesnt matter. What matters is getting up and not letting it get to you. My therapist has been in the industry for 35 years and she says i have had one of the worst lives she has ever heard. It made me a little sad and even more proud to hear this, because Im not broken and I know I can go through even worse. bottom line, you aint dead, be happy.