Confessions of an Aspie Teen
Wo. I just talked/thought about it a lot, the closest I came to doing anything was cutting off one of my fingers with a pair of scissors (which now that I think about it, wouldn't work too well). That stinks TPP. *Hugs for everyone who has this confession especially*
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Go die in a ditch if you're a b*tch, if you're a jerk, go to work, if you're just mean, flee the scene, and if you're rude, go ahead and intrude because you're probably just like me.
i almost commited suicide once when i was 12, i was going to take a wine glass out of my moms cupboard, and i was going to mix pnemonia and bleach together and form a poison , which i would then consume, just the fumes that come out of the concoction are enough to kill you if you breathe in too much, so if you drink it it is a guaranteed death. i was going to have my will in the other hand, which would be found in my cold dead hands, never did it though, i really didnt want to commit suicide i just wanted my life to be less insane for once and i just thought hell would be better then my life,. but i know now that life is precious and you should live every moment to the fullest
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One confession I have is that in seventh grade, I was the one that stole the snacks from the office. They made an announcement that someone was stealing snacks and it only started that year. I haven't told anyone to this day. Also in fifth/sixth grade, I stole chocolate kisses from an office belonging to a member of the faculty and shared them with my friends. I would have gotten in sooo much trouble.
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A lot of aspies have thought about it...but I doubt NT's think about it. If they do, they don't obsess over it.
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MakaylaTheAspie
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I love my avatar as well. Unfortunately, he's a five foot tall furry adolescent who carrys around some heavy and comical weaponry.
Thats awesome, where did you find him?
He's one half of my current obsession.
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I confess that I was guilty for trying too hard when I fell in love when I was 14. I probably pushed her away, too, and I never realized it. I confess that I hate the man I older sister married, and considering my older sister and him are my official guardians now, that's something. He's extremely cynical, has NO friends, and on a whole seems to hate most people. He refers to them as inferior most of the time. I confess that I masturbate, but never with the image of people I care about in my mind. I confess that I secretly imagine people who hurt me tortured sometimes, but it's also me being tortured in my mind occasionally. A mixture of guilt and hate that builds up in me. I confess that I go on adult/sex sites, despite the fact that I'm 15. I hide it from everyone I'm living with. I confess that I am lonely, which no one thinks I am apparently. I confess I think too much of the future, to the point where I fantasize and fall in love with those fantasies. (IE: I start talking with a girl on a regular basis in school. I get a crush on her. I fantasize about our life together in the future, and fall in love with THAT instead of the girl. I confess I've been on only one date in my life, never kissed a girl before, and that my life is pitiable. I confess that I hate how my family disagrees with my beliefs and views on the world (And they are GOOD views. I'm not cynical... Theye're the cynical ones. And yes, I confess I'm being cynical about them being cynical). I confess that whenever I tear my eyes from a sex scene in a movie or television series, it's just to make other people think I don't want to watch it when they're near. I confess that I'm disgusted by myself sometimes. I confess that I don't want to live long enough to grow very old. I confess that I always envision possible ways to get away with murder or commit suicide, yet never act on those thoughts. I confess that I feel guilt whenever I do something wrong. I confess that sometimes, I make mistakes, despite how perfect I want to be/appear. I confess I'm sometimes too prideful and lazy. I confess I eat too much. I confess I don't try as hard as I should to look good, eliminate acne, and reduce my weight.
There, WrongPlanet. You have heard the Confessions of a Teenage Drama... I'm not going to finish that.
There, WrongPlanet. You have heard the Confessions of a Teenage Drama... I'm not going to finish that.
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There, WrongPlanet. You have heard the Confessions of a Teenage Drama... I'm not going to finish that.
I can relate to some of this stuff.
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Go die in a ditch if you're a b*tch, if you're a jerk, go to work, if you're just mean, flee the scene, and if you're rude, go ahead and intrude because you're probably just like me.
[rant]
I can hardly tolerate to be near my father for an extended period of time. Despite of this, I refuse to stray too far away from him during my upcoming college years out of the fear that he may need me, seeing as his health is ailing. I worry about his health and his happiness more often than I worry about my own, even though I cannot wait to no longer be in the same house as him.
I, too, have often dwelled on the possibility of suicide. However, I cannot even bring a razor to lacerate my arm, let alone my neck, for I made a promise to an angel (or spirit, presence, memory, etc.) that I would stay around long enough to care for my family as much as I can.
Even though I sometimes struggle with looking my family in the eye and even though I'm one of the most distant members of the family, I care for them more severely than they could ever possibly conceive.
I genuinely love people, even though they make little sense to me and are often the reason that I dwell on suicide in the first place.
And yet I often envision myself living entirely and utterly isolated. This possibility does not perturb me in the slightest.
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QuantumKiller
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I confess that I feel very alone and would rather die than live out the rest of my life this way. I'm not even close to killing myself right now, but in 5 to 10 years, I could see suicide being a possibility if nothing improves. I'll try my hardest to make friends and generally lead a happy life, but if I just don't see a future for myself... then what's the point? I'm not going to cling to false hope.
Now I'm having regrets about posting this, like it's a rant I should keep to myself and putting it on here is selfish and unnecessary. But it feels good to get this stuff off my chest.
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