I can relate to this. However there are two thoughts I'd like to share.
First, there is love, or let's say emotional relatedness that's in our subconscious. It's there, just we or our subconscious self suppresses it. I think party because of not complying with our basically logical thinking. For example, if we like a person, say, our mother, we may love her despite we feel the repercussions of former resentments too. Or simply we just don't feel the need to show our attachment to be more than a helpful co-operation. Our (real) emotions are not walking hand in hand with our thoughts. In extreme life situations such as serious diseases, trauma, death our real feelings tend to show up, I've seen/experienced a couple of examples of it.
Second, in romantic relationships, chemistry may take over the control of thoughts, quite literally. I experienced this, this is like a mega dose of endorfine/adrenalin or whatever that makes you high. It eventually makes you emotionally attached to the related person well after the chemicals are turned down from maximum to idle.
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Another non-English speaking - DX'd at age 38
"Aut viam inveniam aut faciam." (Hannibal) - Latin for "I'll either find a way or make one."