purchase wrote:
I want to communicate but I don't want to communicate in the style I've been communicating in.
Does this make sense to anyone.
I don't want to feel alone but I need to be separate. [...]
I don't know if this will explain it but I started out with a ten-paragraph thing I was going to post and then I just couldn't because I don't feel like communicating anything that secret. But if I don't, I feel alone.
I'm not sure I understand....
Is it kind of like you want to change
what you say to others, but not necessarily
how you say it?
Is it that you want to change your communication to be more open about who you are, how you feel, or what you think/experience (because otherwise you feel alone?)..... but at the same time you aren't comfortable with being more open (because you need a certain amount of comfortable distance/separate-ness that you would lose if you shared more about yourself?)....?
purchase wrote:
So I wanted to not feel alone by seeing if anyone else has secrets they don't want to tell but they feel alone not telling.
I've definitely had things that I prefer not to share with people but feel lonely carrying around inside....I'm not sure how similar my experience is to yours, but I think I can relate somewhat to this.
purchase wrote:
This is cryptic as all get out but sometimes there are just no words.
I understand--some things are impossible for me to put into words. The more complex and abstract/invisible something is, the harder it is for me to express it in words.
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