I probably qualify as lazy. But I'm not depressed. I may have executive dysfunction, and I get so absorbed into interests that the chores can get in my way. But let me analyze some things.
mowing the grass
I used to like mowing the grass. At home I helped Dad with it. Then as soon as I got married I bought a Sears riding lawn mower for my 2 acre lawn. The only thing I disliked was sweating---I can't stand sweat getting in my eyes and stuff. My wife and I eventually decided to get a larger lawn mower, so we bought a John Deere (we gave the Sears mower to a neighbor in need). The John Deere worked fine for awhile, but the mowing engagement thing kept turning off. At first it happened maybe once or twice during a mowing. But then, it got worse. I've had in and out of the John Deere dealership several times, and it never gets fixed. It now disengages about once every minute or two. We paid over $5000 for that mower and it's frustrating. So...I dreaded mowing. I hired some boys that worked for my in-laws to mow the grass. But then they got old enough to think about college, so I bought another John Deere---bigger deck, bigger engine. I should mention that I mowed the grass regularly up until the time I had back surgery and had a pulmonary embolism due to a blood clot in my leg. As soon as I got the new mower, a professional lawn care person that was working for a neighbor was looking for work. I thought, hmmm, why not? I hate sweating, so I hired him. After my back problems, this could be nice. He has mowed the lawn ever since. And the new John Deere has set in the barn for three years with only 10 hours of mowing time on it. And the old John Deere still sets with a faulty button. Lazy? I don't know. I tried to mow.
washing dishes
My wife and I have a dishwasher. But still, one has to unload and load the dishwasher. I don't like to do this. The reason? I have to take the dishes out in a certain order and put them in in a certain way and order. My wife will usually help and it frustrates me the way she does it. If I say anything, it may upset her. So I have tended to the laundry department instead. I do all the washing of our clothes, folding, and hanging them up. I figure that is a good trade off. To do laundry I have to go down into the basement, and then take the clothes to the second floor---a lot of stairs. She has bad ankles, so this works out well.
If I do typical guy work, my back aches horribly. I used to be able to do these things, but my back is bad now. I often hire things done that require a lot of physical stress.
When I get home from work, I often don't feel like doing anything else but resting an engaging in things I want to, such as interests. I keep the laundry up. But I want my free time. Call it lazy or whatever, but that's the way it is.
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10 Apr 2012, 10:16 pm
